欲斷魂依深情。。。

The Fifth Month

2010-11-27T15:03:00.002+08:00

It has been almost 5 months since 27th June 2010.
Don't know why my birthday often turn out to be my saddest day of all.
I still remembered, on 23rd June 2010,
I was still in Hong Kong preparing to come back to Penang for a project.
I got very moody on that day, so I decided to call my mum.
Turn out my mum told me that my grandma was in very danger condition;
of which my grandma might not be able to pull through this time.
I was so worry and so sad of it, I knee down and pray;
"Lord Jesus, for I have wrong, please forgive my sins and being sinners,
please give me the chance to see my grandma, please not to bring her home."

I keep pray and pray then I got peace. Thank GOD for listening to my prayer and my grandma did stay on till I came back to Penang. Yet she was in a very bad condition,
everyone in the family is preparing for her leaving back to Heaven. But I am not ready, and I am so afraid that she might pass away during my sleep.

Then my mum told me that I could pray to Lord Jesus and He shall let me know when grandma is about to go. On the 27th June 2010 early morning, I did a very selfish matter, in a transition of waking up and dreaming; I saw Jesus held my grandma to say goodbye, I was so sad that I knee down in the transition and plead Lord not to bring her home, but to give me one more year to spend with her.

I MISS YOU........After So Long

2009-08-26T00:15:00.002+08:00

Years passed, dream lesser than before,
yet I still miss you .........
may be I took granted of what we spent together.

Today I started to write our story again......
I seems to see your smile appear in my memory..........
Your pretended angry face, your cheating smile......
And your notty laughing voice......

How I wish that you still here with me......
You still whisper in my ear like you did............
Your kisses on my lips.....
Your breathe on my skin....

I took your love for granted.....
May be that's why I have to loss you.....
May be that's to tell me how precious you to me.........
May be that call the earn for my heart beating for you.........

My heart soaring for your love from the day I lost you.......
My soul crying for losing the most closer person I have........
I need you..........I always need you.........
How can I let go of you when you are still in my life............
How can I let the past be past when I am still holding my hand back on you.

Oh~my wife.........I can't get on my life without you..........
My life in mess without you.......
You completed everything.......
I want to rush to you now..........
I want you to hug me tight again like you always do............
I miss your smell.........I miss your laugh.........I miss your voice.........
I miss you...................

一則感人的故事

2009-03-12T13:26:00.003+08:00

媳婦說：
煮淡一點妳就嫌沒有味，現在煮鹹一點妳卻說咽不下，妳究竟想怎麼樣？」
母親一見兒子回來，二話不說便把飯菜往咀裡送。
她怒瞪他一眼。
他試了一口，馬上吐出來，
兒子說：「我不是說過了嗎，媽有病不能吃太鹹！」
「那好！媽是你的，以後由你來煮！」
媳婦怒氣沖沖地回房。

兒子無奈地輕嘆一聲，然後對母親說：
「媽，別吃了，我去煮個麵給妳。」
「仔，你是不是有話想跟媽說，是就說好了，別憋在心裡！
「媽，公司下個月升我職，我會很忙，至於老婆，她說很想出來工作，所
以 ....」
母親馬上意識到兒子的意思：
「仔，不要送媽去老人院。」
聲音似乎在哀求。
兒子沉默片刻，他是在尋找更好的理由。
「媽，其實老人院並沒有甚麼不好，妳知道老婆一但工作，一定沒有時間好好
服侍妳。
老人院有吃有住有人服侍照顧，不是比在家裡好得多嗎？」
「可是，阿財叔他....」

洗了澡，草草吃了一碗速食麵，兒子便到書房去。
他茫然地佇立於窗前，有些猶豫不決。
母親年輕便守寡，含辛茹苦將他撫養成人，供他出國讀書。
但她從不用年輕時的犧牲當作要脅他孝順的籌碼，
反而是妻子以婚姻要脅他！
真的要讓母親住老人院嗎？
仔問自己，他有些不忍。

「可以陪你下半世的人是你老婆，難道是你媽嗎？」
阿財叔的兒子總是這樣提醒他
「你媽都這麼老了，好命的話可以活多幾年，為何不趁這幾年好好孝順她呢？
樹欲靜而風不息，子欲養而親不在啊！」
親戚總是這樣勸他。
兒子不敢再想下去，深怕自己真的會改變初衷。

夕晚，太陽收斂起灼熱的金光，躲在山後憩息。
一間建在郊外山崗的一座貴族老人院。
是的，錢用得越多，兒子才心安理得。
當兒子領著母親步入大廳時，嶄新的電視機，42吋的螢幕正播放著一部喜劇，
但觀眾一點笑聲也沒有。

幾個衣著一樣，髮型一樣的老嫗歪歪斜斜地坐在梳化上，
神情呆滯而有一個老人在自言自語，
有個正緩緩彎下腰，想去撿掉在地上的一塊餅乾吃。

兒子知道母親喜歡光亮，所以為她選了一間陽光充足的房間。
從窗口望出去，樹蔭下，一片芳草如茵。
幾名護士推著坐在輪椅的老者在夕陽下散步，四周悄然寂靜得令人心酸。
縱是夕陽無限好，畢竟已到了黃昏，他心中低低嘆息。

「媽，我........我要走了！」
母親只能點頭。
他走時，母親頻頻揮手，她張著沒有牙的嘴，蒼白乾燥的咀唇在囁嚅著，一副
欲語還休的樣子。
兒子這才注意到母親銀灰色的頭髮，深陷的眼窩以及打著細紋臉。
母親，真的老了！

他霍然記起一則兒時舊事。
那年他才6歲，母親有事回鄉，不便攜他同行，於是把他寄住在阿財叔家幾天。
母親臨走時，他驚恐地抱著母親的腿傷心大聲號哭道：
「媽媽不要丟下我！媽媽不要走！」

最後母親沒有丟下他。
他連忙離開房間，順手把門關上，不敢回頭，深恐那記憶像鬼魅似地追纏而
來。

他回到家，妻子與岳母正瘋狂的把母親房裡的一切扔個不亦樂乎。
身高3呎的獎杯──那是他小學作文比賽「我的母親」第1名的勝利品！
華英字典──那是母親整個月省吃省用所買給他的第一份生日禮物！
還有母親臨睡前要擦的風濕油，沒有為她擦，帶去老人院又有甚麼意義呢？

「夠了，別再扔了！」兒子怒吼道。
﹝這麼多垃圾，不把它扔掉，怎麼放得下我的東西﹞。
岳母沒好氣地說。
「就是嘛！你趕快把你媽那張爛床給抬出去，我明天要為我媽添張新的！」

一堆童年的照片展現在兒子眼前，那是母親帶他到動物園和遊樂園拍的照片。
「它們是我媽的財產，一樣也不能丟！」

「你這算甚態度？對我媽這麼大聲，我要你向我媽道歉！」
「我娶妳就要愛妳的母親，為甚麼妳嫁給我就不能愛我的母親？」

雨後的黑夜分外冷寂，街道蕭瑟，行人車輛格外稀少。
一輛寶馬在路上飛馳，頻頻闖紅燈，陷黃格，呼一聲又飛馳而過。
那輛轎車一路奔往山崗上的那間老人院，停車直奔上樓，推開母親臥房的門。
他幽靈似地站著，母親正撫摸著風濕痛的雙腿低泣。
她見到兒子手中正拿著那瓶風濕油，顯然感到安慰的說：
「媽忘了帶，幸好你拿來！」

他走到母親身邊，跪了下來。
「很晚了，媽自己擦可以了，你明天還要上班，回去吧！」
他囁嚅片刻，終於忍不住啜泣道：
「媽，對不起，請原諒我！我們回家去吧！」

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

這一篇故事是從其他網絡裡轉載下來的﹐看了更讓我明白該如何好好的去疼錫我媽。上天對我最好的地方就是給了我一位好媽媽﹐無論在怎麼樣情況下都資助我的母親。

許多人都想自己的另一伴能待自己的雙親好﹐在您這麼想時不妨就以自己先去真心對待對方的雙親。

深夜。。。我的手機為你開

2009-03-04T15:16:00.003+08:00

深夜，你的手機為誰開？

女孩每天臨睡會先關掉手機，
然後把它放在寫字台自己的相框架前，
這個習慣從買了手機的時候就這樣保持著。
女孩有個很要好的男朋友，兩個人不見面的時候，
就打打電話或發發短信，大家都喜歡這樣的聯絡方式。

有一天夜裡，男孩很想念女孩子，打了過去卻關機，
因為女孩子已經睡著了。
第二天，男孩對女孩子說：“以後晚上不要關機，好嗎？
我想你的時候找不到你，心會不安。”

從那以後，女孩開始另一種習慣整夜都不關機。
因為害怕他打來自己會因睡著而聽不到，
女孩夜夜都很警醒，人便日日消瘦。
然而，慢慢地，兩個人之間還是有了裂痕。
女孩很想挽回即臨分手的局面，
便在一個深夜裡給男孩打電話，
回答她的是很好聽的女聲：sorry，你所撥打的電話已關機。　　

於是女孩知道，她的愛情已經關機。

很久以后，女孩有了另一場愛情。
即使兩個人在一起的感覺也很好，但女孩怎麼也不肯嫁。
女孩的心裡還是會想起那個男孩的話和那個關機的夜。
女孩還是保持著整夜不關機的習慣，只是不再期待它會響起。

一天夜裡，女孩身染急症，
慌亂之中把本想撥給父母的電話，
卻打通了這個男孩的電話，
這個男孩沒關機。女孩平安地恢復了健康。

後來女孩問男孩：“為什麼深夜還不關機？”

男孩說：“我怕你夜裡有事情找不到我，會心慌。”

女孩最終嫁給了男孩。

是啊，你的手機，深夜裡為誰開？
你會不會怕她找不到而心慌，愛一個人，有一份等待，
就會在深夜裡習慣性的開機。
有一個可以開機等候你的人，那是一種深深的幸福。

愛痛?

2009-02-22T11:51:00.000+08:00

到底什麼才叫愛﹖
怎樣的愛才叫精彩﹖
要付出眼淚才能證明愛﹖
如果只剩下崇拜那還算愛﹖﹖
是否傷痕纍纍的愛才最實在﹖﹖ 下雨天地心特別傷﹐
雨在外下﹐淚在心中流。
已記不清﹐妳是如何撥動我心跳﹔
已不再知﹐是否能與妳真情相擁。
..................................................................................................................

曾經聽過人說真愛是愛到痛為止。
以前覺得好無根據﹐
現在想回﹐其實愛本身就是痛的化身。
只有最痛的愛是最精彩﹐因為最痛的愛是最深刻。
也是最難以忘記。
只有妳最愛的才會讓妳哭紅雙眼﹐甚至哭朦眼。
也只有心上的傷痕去衡量妳對此人的愛到底有多少。
愛的世界裡是黑暗的,因為妳所有的眼光就浮現在一人身上。
週圍自然會暗淡起來。。。。
也只有最痛的愛才叫真愛 ﹐因為明知會琢裂了心屝﹐震碎了心窗。
妳都會因為愛那人而不怕這一切。。。。。
真愛雖是痛苦的化身但它也是祝福。。。給彼此長久的祝福。
要愛就別去怕痛。。。。。。

《妳那麼愛他----李聖傑vs林隆璇》

2009-02-22T11:14:00.006+08:00

直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个
美好风景
只是她早已离去
直到你想通她早已经
不再对你留恋
最后的你
开始了一段挣扎
你那么爱她
为甚么不把她留下
为甚么不说心里话
你深爱她
这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱她
为甚么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的
两个她
所以你不想再让自己
无法自拔

直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个
美好风景
只是她早已离去
直到你想通她早已经
不再对你留恋
最后的你
开始了一段挣扎
你那么爱她
为甚么不把她留下
为甚么不说心里话
你深爱她
这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱她
为甚么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的
两个她
所以你不想再让自己
无法自拔

你那么爱她
为甚么不把她留下
为甚么不说心里话
你深爱她
这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱她
为甚么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的
两个她
所以你不想再让自己
无法自拔

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<<妳那麼愛他 >> 是李聖傑的歌 ﹐
大概是大數人都知道的 ﹔
它也是我最喜歡的歌曲之一 ﹐
或許是歌曲的旋律讓我痴迷 ﹐
又或許是歌詞的寫照讓我心寒。。。
它的確讓我明白愛原來可以那麼那麼的複雜混亂 ﹐
愛也可以那麼那麼的多感 ﹔
但我所明白的是如果不去付出的愛就不是愛 ﹐
或許我太天真了罷 ﹐ 把愛看得太簡單。
但簡單的愛不就是人人都想追求的嗎 ?
既然追求它簡單但又為何要把愛複雜化呢 ?
或許愛根本就經不起考驗罷 ~
太辛苦人們就選擇放下手。。。
不想解決的問題人們就選擇迴避 ﹐
所以愛根本就無法簡簡單單。
再加上愛從來就不是單純的倆人關係。。。
它所牽連的多得是。。。
人的能力又怎麼能去一一解決那些所牽連的人與事呢 ?
人生 ﹐人世間的愛就是這樣 ﹐
相愛的時機出了錯誤 ﹐
而讓錯誤去牽連了更多人。。。。
這也是為什么會有那麼多三角四角戀的出現。
人真的好複雜 ﹐ 做人也真的好累。

The Most Fearful Night

2009-01-22T23:22:00.004+08:00

I was "attacked" so afraid.....
Felt so lonely and hopeless to face it all myself........
I wished so much that there was someone to be with me.......
To hold me tight.......yet......I was just too dreamful..........
Just me alone.......just tears and shadow beside me......
Shutting out help......yet who answer?????
Breatheless shivering......yet who to cover?????
Where are YOU??? Where are you when I need you the most?????
Where are YOU to hear my cry?
I wished that YOU would bring me "HOME"........
I have seen too much.......known too deep.......
Just too tired........too tired to try to GO ON.....
I won't denied the decision anymore.......Please bring me HOME
Coming HOME........Coming HOME

IN THE SWEET BYE AND BY

2008-11-08T10:09:00.000+08:00

There's a land that is fairer than day,
And by faith we can see it afar;
For the Father waits over the way
To prepare us a dwelling place there.

In the sweet bye and by,
We shall meet on that beautiful shore;
In the sweet bye and by,
We shall meet on that beautiful shore.

We shall sing on that beautiful shore
The melodious songs of the blessed;
And our spirits shall sorrow no more,
Not a sigh for the blessing of rest.

In the sweet bye and by,
We shall meet on that beautiful shore;
In the sweet bye and by,
We shall meet on that beautiful shore.

To our bountiful Father above,
We will offer our tribute of praise
For the glorious gift of His love
And the blessings that hallow our days.

In the sweet bye and by,
We shall meet on that beautiful shore;
In the sweet bye and by,
We shall meet on that beautiful shore.

爱一人

2008-10-28T13:35:00.000+08:00

如果你不爱一个人,

请放手.

好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,

请放开自己,

好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,

有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .

但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,

有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,

但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.

女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,

我选择谎言;

如果谎言一种伤害,

我选择沉默;

如果沉默是一种伤害,

我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，

你怕不怕付出 ,

如果迷乱是苦，

你会不会选择结束,

如果追求是苦，

你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,

如果分离是苦，

你要向谁倾诉,

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,

好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

溝通 , 尊重 , 珍惜

2008-10-08T08:54:00.002+08:00

兩個人在一起有三件事很重要

我覺得這篇文章寫的真好，

兩個不同生長環境的人要在一起，已經是很困難的事了，
而彼此能相互溝通、尊重與珍惜的人更是少之又少。

因為許多人往往都是自私地站在自己的立場去想、去做，

以為這就是對方所需要的，以致常常意氣用事，痛了自己也苦了別人。

所以愛一個人不是給她你要的，因為你要的她不一定要啊 !
而是要給她「她要的」，這樣才是真正愛她。

所以，兩個人在一起有三件事很重要：溝通 •
尊重•
珍惜 ◆
溝通
兩個人一定要會溝通，溝通可不是件容易的事喔

就連我這個自認是「溝通大師」的都不一定會溝通呢！

我就說「炒蛋事件」好了!
我跟我老婆結婚才三個月的時候 ... 就發現我不會溝通了 !

就有一天，我心血來潮突然就跟她說：

「我今晚作一道世界名菜給你吃 ! 」

平常晚上，我家都是吃三菜一湯。

她一做完兩菜一湯就離開廚房，

說要拭目看我作出什麼世界名菜來給她吃，
讓她有個驚喜我就拿起三個蛋，打散，

唰 ~ 下鍋，加蔥花 ... ，再加醬油 ~?

這是最重要的!!
小時候不是都吃媽媽的醬油炒蛋嗎 ?
這可是含有濃濃的母愛的香味呢 !
好啦 !? 起鍋 ~ 世界名菜 --- 「醬油炒蛋」上桌 !

她走出來，一看，「這是什麼? 」

「蛋啊 ! 炒蛋啊 ~ 」

她是外省人，所以她們從小吃的蛋都是加鹽巴的。

我是本省人，所以都是加醬油的。

「我不要吃 ! 這不是炒蛋。」

這女人怎麼這麼硬啊?!
醬油炒蛋就不是蛋嗎？分別是少見多怪嘛 ! 黑蛋當然也是蛋啊 ~

「不吃就不吃 ! 」

她筷子一摔，還真的就不吃了。
碰 ! 還甩房門。

自此而後，只要我每次炒蛋，內心、腦袋就開始掙扎...
「要加鹽巴? 還是加醬油 ?我應該要讓她才對 ... 不對? 」
哼！這一步不能讓 ! 這可是攸關我大男人的面子，

尤其童年的回憶、媽媽的母愛、還有省籍意識在裡面的ㄋㄟ~
怎麼能輕易就讓妳?!
每次上桌的醬油炒蛋，她就當作沒看到那道菜。

我們就這樣過了五年。

很不可思議吧！

為了個炒蛋吵了五年，

但後來突然有一天福至心靈，我終於想通了 !

我們跟小朋友玩不是都會讓他嗎 !
因為他年紀小，不懂事嘛，所以我讓她 !
而有時老婆不懂事、幼稚的時候，我又何必認真呢！

有一天我就炒了加鹽巴的蛋上桌了。

唷！我們家的黑蛋怎麼變白蛋啦 ?
就沒聽過黑人會變白人的，我們家的黑蛋竟然也會變白蛋呀 ! 」

我這時啥也沒說，只嘿嘿乾笑了兩聲。

可是，你知道嗎？

過兩天，換我在桌上看見黑蛋了。她炒的。

所以，愛一個人不是要給她你要的，你要的她不一定要啊 !
而是要給她「她要的」 ! 切記。

要把對方的需要當作你的責任，這樣才是真正愛她。
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尊重
男生在發展關係的同時能尊重對方的意願，

能把主控權交給女生的才是好男生。

艾斯德講的是「兩個人在一起要學會尊重彼此的任何決定」。
意見不合可以溝通，
因為無論從人權、人性來說，男女生都是站在平等地位上的。

我告訴朋友 --- 尊重，是最重要的 !
如果他( 她 )會尊重你，意即什麼都好，都是能商量的。

會把你放在平等地位上看待的這男生或女生就不會糟到哪裡去。
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珍惜
我們要珍惜每一段關係。

假設你還能活 60 年好了 !

等你 60 年後，快死之前，請你拿起一隻筆和一張紙，
想一想，寫下你這一生中「真正愛過」的 10 個人。

爸媽兄弟姊妹都可以，是真正愛過的喔 !

那種只愛三個禮拜的不算是真愛。

能寫到超過是最好，不到 10 個也沒關係。

我現在想，我就好像寫不來 10 個呢！

我是不是真正愛我方爸媽都不太確定。

因為你真正愛一個人會一年只見他三次面嗎 ?
不會吧！一定是巴不得每天都能看到他 ( 她 ) 的是吧！

可是現在都有自己的家庭了，所以一年大概也只回去三次而已。

紙翻過來再寫，這一生中「真正愛過你」的 10 個人，

如果你真能寫到 10 個那你可真的很幸運很幸福了 !!

還有一個小故事 !
大意是說一個即將升職的男人，

因為她老婆突然罹患老年癡呆症，

朋友們都建議他把老婆送到醫院治療兼療養。 ,
他考慮了一星期後遞出了辭呈。

朋友們都很驚訝、錯愕，紛紛詢問他為什麼要放棄升遷的機會呢 ?
他的人生就將要達到最高峰了啊！

他說：「我只想到我曾在神前面承諾過，不論她貧窮、疾病、變老、變醜、我要愛她、照顧她一輩子。」
「好東西要跟大家分享生命就該浪費在美好的事物上，

當你遇見美好的事物時所要做的事，

就是把它分享給你四周的人；

這樣，美好的事物才能在這個世界上

自由自在的散播開來 ....(.^_^.) 」

Story Uploaded

2008-08-26T16:28:00.002+08:00

Sorry for taking up so long not to upload anything in my blog,
this is due to I need sometimes to hook up and settle myself in here.
Almost a month here in Hong Kong and yet I have experienced twice of the typhoon.
The weather will be coolzy and windy during typhoon,
yet it easily make people sick, may be I was just yet to adapt into it.

尋覓人生

2008-07-23T10:56:00.003+08:00

人的一生，就一场又一场有意無意的尋覓。
人不断在不同的角落,不同的时段
去尋覓她最基本需要的安全感。
去尋覓她渴望愛和被愛。
去尋覓她所追求的幸福和快樂。
去尋覓她所要的成就和滿足感。
去尋覓更多更多的財富和名望。
甚至是去尋覓所看不见的生命真谛。
但也有的只是很平凡的去追逐她所认为绝一不可缺的心中完美另一半。
在这一场场的追逐游戏下,人或许找到歡欣的得著;
而最讽刺的是原来这些歡欣的得著, 是不停的付出所换回来的。
再加上这歡欣的得著可能并不长留, 因为有些得著会不自覺地失去。
生命其实就是一场场幻得幻失的梦境,失去自然而然会让人痛苦离失自我;
尤其是当兩個本是相愛的人，擦身而過, 却要在猶豫中，錯失對方。
= = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = =

給妳

但今天我可以很幸运的说,在我离失了过去,
我却在冥冥中遇上你,
我很想说我已经尋到了我的完美另一半, 可是未來日子的路上,
我仍要很多很多的勇氣和毅力去走.
我願意并且十分堅持，想跟你一步一步走下去。

丢了翅膀，他仍是天使

2008-07-16T18:58:00.001+08:00

A story was sent to me when my godson was facing some serious illness, it's a touching story....hope it can encourage everyone.

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当在外地出差的我坐飞机赶回来时，十个月的儿子新新已经被推出抢救室。医生说持续的高烧也许损伤了脑神经，我要有心理准备接受可能的后遗症。
　　老公两天后才从国外回来。出院后，我们常常测试新新的听力和视觉，没有发现任何异常。我们终于放下忐忑的心。可渐渐地，我发现他开始瞪着无神的眼睛发
呆，或者呈现一种令我不安的笑容。当和新新一般大的孩子开始迈着步子，清脆地喊着爸爸妈妈的时候，新新依旧呆呆坐在那里，傻傻地笑着。抱着他四处求医，结论同
出一辙：新新的智力将会停留在幼儿期，除非发生奇迹。
　　那是段痛不欲生的日子，抱着孩子寻找各种可能的奇迹，秘方、偏方，甚至针灸。那长长的针如同刺在我的心尖，汗和泪伴着孩子凄厉的哭声一起落下。我多么希望
这只是一场梦，梦醒后充满灵气的新新在对我甜甜地笑。我开始幻听，总感觉新新在喊妈妈。
　　我深深自责为了事业没有照顾好儿子，却不敢留在家里面对。每天下班后沉默地搂着他，日复一日，泪流尽了，心也似乎麻木了。老公也因为家里气氛沉闷，渐渐变
得很少回家吃饭。
　　婆婆来看我们，说把新新带走，让我们再要一个孩子。我不假思索断然拒绝，我不能那样做 ! 他没有选择地来到这个世界，又因为我的疏忽变成这样，已经够不幸
了 ! 把新新紧紧搂在怀里，我不要别人分享对他的爱！
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新新两周岁生日那天，我才惊觉老公已经不再陪我们一起吃饭了，怕失去他的恐慌开始噬咬着我，使我觉得难以呼吸。直至深夜，一身酒气踉踉跄跄的老公才踏进家
门，我已经荒芜的泪水终于又奔涌出来。老婆，我们再要一个孩子好吗 ? 我狠狠点着头，与他紧紧相拥，抵死缠绵……
我又怀孕了！抚着逐渐隆起的小腹，有些苦涩的甜蜜。我仿佛比谁都期待这个孩子，却又在内心里抗拒这个孩子。看到新新向我伸来的手臂，我的心又涌起巨大的痛
楚：新新，这个世界，除了妈妈谁还能爱你 !
　　我终于下定决心打掉这个孩子，可检查结果使我震惊：我竟然怀了双胞胎！
　　2002 年的夏天，一对漂亮的小女孩阳阳和月月降临了。满月以后，那对粉雕玉琢的小人，总是甜甜地笑，很少哭闹。只要我一说话，头就随着我的声音转，让我充
分享受到做妈妈的喜悦。我已经顾不上新新，无论我多么约束自己，潜意识里我已经开始忽略新新，只把他交给保姆，甚至开始讨厌他那傻傻的样子。
　　转眼，阳阳和月月会走了。新新一般不注意什么，只是对这两个妹妹格外敏感，常常注视她们的一举一动，似乎带着极大的兴趣，而且不同于平时的眼神。我是不允
许他接近她们的，他只能那样在一边望着，可我控制不住阳阳和月月蹒跚迈向新新的脚步，她们同样对新新表现出极大的兴趣。而我却舍不得强迫她们什么，只是一次又
一次严厉地对新新说，记住，不许碰妹妹 ! 不许碰妹妹！渐渐地，他对我有了怯意，我却丝毫没觉得有何不妥。
　　一天，孩子们在午睡，保姆出去买菜，我去储物间整理衣物。突然听到孩子的哭声，我连忙跑进卧室，看到新新正从床的栏杆间缝向外拉月月的两根手指，手指被卡
住，新新还在用力向外拉。我一把拉过新新，照着他的手，狠狠拍打，不是告诉你不许碰妹妹，不许碰妹妹吗 !看你以后还碰不碰妹妹 ! 我越打越生气，似乎在发泄对
他积累的厌恶。我疯了似的寻找可以用来打他的东西，直到看见镜子里自己魔鬼一样的脸。我终于听到孩子们的哭声，终于看到蜷缩一团哭泣的新新，还有女儿们的喊叫
声 ……
　　保姆回来了，抱起新新，看着我余怒未消的脸想说什么，我摆摆手让她抱新新回自己的房间。我哄着阳阳和月月，突然看到床上有几块动物饼干，阳阳的手里还握着
一块要喂我。我连忙到月月那边，果然月月那边床下有几块饼干，已经被我踩碎了。新新最喜欢吃动物饼干，原来他拉妹妹的手是要给妹妹饼干。我的心被刺痛了，连忙
到他的房间，他已经被保姆哄睡了，可还在睡梦里抽搐着。我不禁泛起一阵酸楚，我这是怎么了 ?我还是他的妈妈吗'
　　一天，我和女儿们玩着拥抱的游戏。我拍拍手，她们就喊着妈妈，张着小胳膊争先恐后向我跑来，然后我们紧紧拥抱。这么简单的游戏，她们却乐此不疲，一遍又一
遍。忽然，新新也张开他的胳膊，向我跑来，含糊地说着，妈妈，妈妈。我简直不相信自己的耳朵 ! 我的儿子，自从来到这个世界，从没开过口! 紧紧搂住扑到怀里的
新新，我哭了。已经对他沉睡的母爱被重新唤起，儿子，妈妈有多久没搂过你，妈妈对不起你！
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　　我终于开始认真思考我的孩子们，我有一个与众不同的家庭，我竟然有三个孩子！他们正渐渐长大，将来要有他们自己的人生。等我离开这个世界时，只有他们之间
才能互相照顾。尤其新新，他需要好多好多的爱。
　　我不再分隔他们，而是常常告诉女儿们，要好好爱哥哥，因为没有他，就没有她们。我知道她们听不懂，我只希望她们会记住我的话。
　　我每天陪三个孩子做游戏，唱歌，跳舞，为他们讲故事。而新新，越来越有灵气，不但会叫爸爸、妹妹了，还会含糊表达自己的需要，而且会随着节奏跳些简单的舞
步。看着并成一排熟睡中的孩子们，我终于相信这个世界上有奇迹，那就是爱，爱可以创造一切！
　　阳阳和月月到了上幼儿园的年龄，我也该上班了。为了减少我的负担，婆婆来商量着把新新接走。我犹豫再三，其实按新新现在的情况，勉强可以上幼儿园，可他毕
竟和别的孩子不一样，我害怕来自外界给他的伤害。
　　新新被带走的那个晚上，女儿们不肯上床睡觉，一定要等哥哥回来。她们闪着漂亮的大眼睛问我，哥哥什么时候回来 ?为什么哥哥不上幼儿园 ? 我的心一凛，回答
她们，哥哥生病了，要好长时间才会好。她们又问。他会想我们的，为什么我们不照顾他呢 ? 快让哥哥回来，我们会照顾他的。我的心紧了又紧，你们要乖乖的，只要
你们听话，哥哥就会回来。她们终于乖乖睡下，而我在黑夜里挂念着新新。儿子，你好吗？
　　女儿们只去了三天幼儿园，就说什么也不肯去了，告诉我幼儿园里有好多好玩的玩具，还有好多的小朋友，还学习新歌，认字，英语，她们要等哥哥回来一起去。她
们充满期盼的眼睛望着我，还带有小小的挑衅。我讶于她们的执拗，耐着性子哄着她们，可她们却怎么也不肯答应。我沉下脸一手抱着一个，她们哇哇哭起来，妈妈骗
人，说只要我们乖，哥哥就会回来，我们都听话了，可哥哥还是没有回来 !
　　我的心猛地僵住了! 压抑的眼泪再也控制不住，你们的哥哥，他和别人不一样，他永远学不会那些东西 ! 女儿们为我擦着泪，会的，会的，妈妈，哥哥能学会
的，我们会帮助他的 ! 看着她们，我感到了做妈妈的歉疚，我只会一味逃避，以为自己很爱新新，却不如孩子们充满信心去面对。
　　门铃响，竟然是婆婆送新新回来了! 几天不见，新新瘦了好多。婆婆无奈地说，这几天新新几乎没吃东西，也不肯睡觉，只一直哭，喊着妹妹，妹妹。她看了心里实
在难受，不得已就送回来了。
　　女儿们兴奋起来，拉着新新的手，开始讲幼儿园的事情，还催促我为新新换最漂亮的衣服，他们要一起去幼儿园。
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　　我找到园长，请求她让我的孩子们在一起。因为按照新新的年龄应该上大班，可他的智力水平还不如小班的孩子。当看到我的女儿们一边一个拉着儿子的手，并挥手
和我再见的时候。我相信这个决定是对的，爱会为我们创造更多的奇迹。
　　每天从幼儿园回来，阳阳和月月都帮助新新复习一天学过的东西，而且不许我插手。我的女儿们是班里最出色的孩子，学什么都特别快，而且记得牢。我知道那是因
为她们要教哥哥，所以格外用心去学习。从没看过比她们还有耐心的孩子，轮流一遍又一遍教着笨拙的新新，一个单词往往要重复好多好多遍，甚至梦里还在喃喃。每次
新新学会了，她们就会欢呼起来，然后学着幼儿园老师的样子翘起大拇指说，哥哥你好棒，哥哥你真棒！而我的儿子，就看着妹妹，傻傻憨憨地笑着。
　　老师要求每个孩子学习写自己的名字，这对新新来讲简直是不可能的事情。可一个月后的一天，女儿们兴奋地拉着儿子跑来告诉我，哥哥会写自己的名字了 I 我将
信将疑地看着儿子在纸上歪歪扭扭地写下两个大大的 "新 " 字，尤其敖看到他们练习的本子，我小小的女儿们，竟然知道把哥哥的名字拆成笔划来教，好几个本子写着
他们循序渐进的过程，我再一次被女儿们的耐心折服得泪流满面。
　　一天，我去接他们。走到教室门口，听到有个孩子喊着，你们的哥哥是个傻孩子！我一惊，连忙走进去。我示意正要阻止的老师，决定让孩子们自己去面对。只见阳
阳憋红了小脸对那个孩子说，我的哥哥不是傻孩子，他是天使，他丢了翅膀，来到我们家，变成一个世界上最好的哥哥，他只不过还没习惯人间的生活。孩子们发出
"哇 " 的惊叹声，你们的哥哥竟然是天使哎！老师含着眼泪搂过阳阳，对孩子们说，新新是我们班的天使，他会爱我们每个小朋友，还教会我们如何去爱别人。回家的
路上，我的心被女儿编织的故事激荡着。我问她们为什么那么爱哥哥，她们一起回答，因为没有哥哥就没有我们啊 ! 忽地泪又盈满我的眼，原来她们已经牢牢记住了我
的话，那么小，就学会了爱和感恩。他们是上天赐给彼此的天使，也是上天送给我最珍贵的礼物。因为他们，我才知道，做妈妈是那么值得骄傲和幸福！

Way Back Into Love

2008-07-15T12:45:00.006+08:00

To You,

I understand that both of us got shadows deep in us,
Sorry that I can't change the past, of which I wish I could.
What can be hold in my hands are our future,
I will do with all of my ability to light up a candle in your heart.
A song for you as an encouragement to you and to me.
I know you got a tough day today, so do I,
yet I knew you can handle it pretty well, so I ain't worry of it.
But I do cross my finger to give you all the support to handle it in a conquer way.
And hopefully not long you will tell me the powerful words,
which will bring forward you from the past and enter the future.
Love can come shine through us when we interacting our heart to heart.

Your Love,
TS

我的心肝宝贝

2008-07-10T11:09:00.003+08:00

经过了漫长时间的等待，我终于等到了新的车灯与大镜。
由于它已经是绝版了的车款，
因此新的车灯是必须专程等由日本总公司运来；
而至于它的大镜就是找遍了所有地方都寻获不到，
最终我必须到泰国去找人特地开机模造。

这场等待光就用了我一年多的时间，
但可幸的是这一切都寻回了，
而我的宝贝也终于可以恢复原来的形象。

可是由于太久没有驾驶，它也就开始给了我一些小毛病。
记得大约在上个月，当我驾驶着它去载我的好朋友（死野）的朋友时，
它既然在那个朋友上车后，就开始有段接“死火”的现象。
真的让我在新朋友面前出羞，最后既然还得麻烦我的另个朋友开车载我们出去。

很可恶的是隔天当我把它再拿回去给修车师傅时，
它既然在师傅面前显出好段段没有任何问题的样子；
让我被我老爸骂我是否太过大惊小怪。
这个事件到现在都依然是道无法揭开的迷，
搞到我有些不知所措。
我的宝贝有时真的满调皮坏蛋的。。。
但它依然是我最宝贵的，也不是金钱跟时髦所能取代的。

Ways to Mitigate Global Warming and Pollutions

2008-06-27T15:24:00.008+08:00

Have you ever realized what kind of world you live in today? Have you noticed what kind of environment that is surrounding you in these? People are so busy with their own businesses that they often neglected their surrounding not to say about the environmental issues. However even we have neglected the issues, its do not mean that the issues do not cause serious impact to our lives.
It is true that our human daily lifestyles are the greater contributor to destroy our mother nature, but it is true also that the pollutant that we released to the environment have caused series of damages to our human bodies. This is because these pollutants can cause series of danger disease to human being, of which are including cancer, lupus, immune diseases, allergies, and asthma. For the higher levels of background radiation have contribute to an increased incidence of cancer, especially after World War II when America released an atomic bomb to Nagasaki and Hiroshima as well as in the Soviet Union during the 50’s and 60’s whereby nuclear weapons have tested by then.

Some illnesses are named for the places where specific pollutants were first formally implicated such as the Mina Mata disease, which is caused by mercury compounds. Contamination caused by pollution can also have damaging effects in the brain and central nervous system. Furthermore bad air condition or water pollution can also kill human being as we need to eat and drink out of the water. Ozone pollution can cause sore throats, inflammation, chest pain, congestion and skin cancer. Oil spills can cause skin irritations and rashes. Noise pollution induces hearing loss, high blood pressure, stress and sleep disturbance.
Right before the modern medical evidences to support the danger of pollutants, England was the first country in history that took serious control by banning the burning of sea-coal by proclamation in London in 1361, after its smoke had become a major problem to England. Among all nations the United States was one of the first that has been major public attention drawn to pollution issues between the mid-1950s and early 1970s. It was then that the US Congress has passed the Noise Control Act, the Clean Air Act, the Clean Water Act and the National Environmental Policy Act. In addition, United States also spending a few hundred billions every year in the research to develop new technology to mitigate global warming and restore back our Mother Earth. Framework Convention on Climate Change (UNFCCC), an international environmental treaty was produced at the United Nations Conference on Environment and Development (UNCED) under at least 189 countries agreement in Rio de Janeiro in 1992; which aimed to reduce emissions of greenhouse gas in order to mitigate global warming. The world primary agreement was currently amended, the Kyoto Protocol under UNFCCC. This Kyoto Protocol main objective is to stabilize the concentrations of greenhouse gas in the atmosphere at a level that would prevent dangerous anthropogenic interference with the climate system.

There are several ways that can be done in order to mitigate global warming and world pollutions. First of all is to educate our next generation to be unselfishness as well as knowledge regarding to the danger of pollutions and the reason to keep the world clean. Meanwhile to introduce the Polluter Pays Principle of which is a principle in international environmental law that will require the polluting party to pay for the damage done to the natural environment. This is a concept that was probably first described by the Swedish Government in 1975 and was known as Extended Polluter Responsibility (EPR) during that time. This concept seeks to shift the responsibility dealing with waste from governments to the entities producing it, in order to stress the producers to improve the waste profile of their products, thus to increase possibilities for reuse and recycling and indirectly decrease waste. Secondly will be the actions to mitigate global warming, basically they can be categorized into four major categories that more concern on mitigating global warming, of which are reduction of energy use, shifting from carbon-based fossil fuels to alternative energy sources, carbon capture and storage, and geoengineering that included carbon sequestration. It is known that the greenhouse effect mainly is resulted from carbon dioxide emissions when fossil fuels such as petroleum and coal are burned. So the very first and simplest alternative to mitigate global warming is to reduce the usage of energy. This is the alternative that easily can be done by most of the people around the world. All we have to do are just simply to use lesser electricity current, and lessen in driving or practicing “car-pool” concept as well as made walking and cycling more attractive options. This indirectly will lessen the carbon dioxide emissions into the air as the demand for energy has decreased so the requirement for burning fossil fuels and coal will be lessened.
Second alternative to mitigate global warming is to shift from carbon-based fossil fuels to other natural alternative energy sources. This alternative is slightly more difficult and more expensive because this alternative might be requiring new technology that will need to have huge investments in research and development of it. However this alternative can start practicing in the transportation area by developing a hybrids (electric) and hydrogen car. For example the General Motors EV1, Honda EV Plus, Toyota RAV4 EV, Ford Ranger EV, Nissan Altra EV, and the Canadian Dynasty EV 4 door sedan that are the hybrids car; and the BMW H2R, DaimlerChrysler, Ford Focus FCV, Hyundai Santa Fe FCEV and Nissan — X-TRAIL FCV are the hydrogen car. These few models of cars are the sample of cars in reality that does not consume petroleum or consume low-carbon-dioxide sources of electricity that will lessen the emissions carbon dioxide.

Furthermore we can convert our energy sources from fossil fuel and coal to renewable energy such as solar energy, ocean waves and wind energy. Underwent fundamental revisions of the Ministry of International Trade and Industry’s Sunshine Project, Japan was given chance to develop new energy technologies with the aimed at the energy crisis that could built a society that would be free of environmental pollution. Indirectly that project has given birth to the New Sunshine Program which main objective was to develop innovative technology that could create a sustainable growth while solving energy and environmental issues. Japan was able to come out a program that generated electricity current by using solar energy through putting solar panels on the roofs of a million homes. This has made Japan a world leader in that technology, as well as Denmark's support for wind power ensured its former leadership of that sector through a wind turbine that can produces more than fifty times as much energy over its lifetime as is consumed by its construction and installation.

Besides shifting to natural alternative energy resources, carbon capture and storage is an alternative to mitigate climate change by capturing carbon dioxide (CO2) from large point sources such as power plants and subsequently storing it away safely instead of releasing it into the atmosphere. The Americans and Britannic are able to capture and storage the carbon in their modern conventional power plant by installing HEGA is an acronym for "high efficiency gas absorption", a carbon cloth filter and HEPA, which is an acronym for "high efficiency particulate absorbing" or "high efficiency particulate arrestance", a type of air filter that essentially that make by a type of paper. This paper can allows air to pass through while absorbing and trapping pollutants such as dust, pollen, mold, bacteria and any airborne particles that is within the size of 0.3 micrometres (μm) at 85 litres per minute (Lpm), as to prevent these pollutants from moving back into the air. Meanwhile a diverse group of microorganisms which named as Methylococcus Capsulatus and Pichia Pastoris are also been used currently to reduce methane and other pollutants. It is because these microorganisms are able to utilize one-carbon compounds and degrade the greenhouse gas methane, such as methanol or methane, as the carbon-source is some kind of their growing sources. The last alternative but not the least, is by using the geoengineering as the alternative to mitigate global warming. Geoengineering is the options that would involve large-scale engineering of the environment in order to counteract the effects of changes in atmospheric chemistry. This large-scale of engineering is including the carbon sequestration a term that describes processes that remove carbon from the atmosphere by enhancing natural sequestration processes; of which will be including reforestation or increasing ocean absorption of carbon dioxide. The reforestation is a process that means to restore back the areas of woodlands or forest that once existed but were deforested or destroyed due to man greediness in the past. For trees can help in cleaning the air, reducing temperatures and smog. As it is known that in the photosynthesis process, plants absorb or take in carbon dioxide from the atmosphere; store the carbon as sugar, starch and cellulose in its leaf stomata, while oxygen is released back into the atmosphere.

On the other side, increasing ocean absorption of carbon dioxide simply mean by using the ecosystem in the ocean to take in more carbon dioxide. This is because the phytoplanktons in the oceans are just like the trees that will use photosynthesis to extract carbon from CO2. Meanwhile the planktons and other marine organisms in the ocean will also extract CO2 from the ocean water and convert it to the mineral calcite, CaCO3, to build their skeletons and shells.

Despite the global warming issue, water control is also a must because the global water crisis is the leading cause of death and disease in the world, taking the lives of more than 14,000 people each day, 11,000 of them children under age 5. The only solution is to clean up the mess we put in the rivers, streams, lakes and oceans. We also known that cleaning up our watersheds and eliminating water pollution are not going to happen overnight, but there are still some options we can do; such as using carbon-based filters to remove THMs of which is the trihalomethane compounds that usually from the nuclear power plant and other toxins in the water contain.

Meanwhile with the latest genetic technology, under the use of Rhizofiltration of which is use to filter water through a mass of roots to remove toxic substances or excess nutrients; as well as phytoextraction technique mankind try to use plants to remove contaminants from soils, sediments or water. For example by using Brassica juncea, Ambrosia artemisiifolia, and Apocynum cannabinum to extract lead from the soils. Furthermore by using mycelia of oyster mushrooms to reduce polycyclic aromatic hydrocarbons(PAH), using fungal mycelia to filter toxic waste and using Wood-degrading fungi to breakdown aromatic pollutants (toxic components of petroleum), as well as chlorinated compounds (certain persistent pesticides).

Although we have almost destroyed our Mother Earth out of our greediness behavior, there are still ways that can be done in order to mitigate the global warming and pollution issues. And these ways are never be cheap at all as these ways require a lot of research and development that need a lot of money. Everything in this world is possible to happen so does the Mother Nature that still can to return to its previous condition, but it just has to up to the willingness of greedy mankind to pay up these expensive costs.

A Good Trip To KL

2008-05-21T15:40:00.003+08:00

Last friday me and my good friends, we drove down to Kuala Lumpur to attend our best friend's wedding. Even though that was a long journey, and yet none of us felt that. This was because we were having fun of chatting in the journey, we shared lot of stuffs and opinions together we also recalling the fun parts of our childhood.

They are my best friends for 21 years, we known each others since we were still little kid. We grew up together in the same school, we even went for same class tuition together. In fact we are more like sisters than just friends, I am so glad that I still have these friends in my life.

And the most happy part was I got the opportunity to share a tiny moment of her happiness at her wedding ceremony. She obviously looked fabulous in her wedding gown, and the happiness that shown on her face. I am glad that she invited me to share that moment with her and whole bunch of our good friends.

And the joke parts were, me and the other friends were lost of our directions when we were traveling in Kuala Lumpur. We have to travel around in order to go to our destination. And this lost direction behavior follow us back to Penang......haha....

We do enjoy the trip and the moment down to Kuala Lumpur, especially for the occasion that's so meaningful.

最後的一個小時

2008-05-09T14:09:00.001+08:00

你們還記得七年前在美國發生了一場局大的悲劇﹐ 911事件嗎? 當時的我在美國念大學﹐在那裡我有一個非常要好的美國夥伴兼朋友。在這事件還未發生前一個星期﹐她跟她的丈夫原本約定雙雙拿年假去清島渡假的。很可惜在他們連機票都購買了後﹐她丈夫的公司卻突然要他的丈夫出差到波士頓飛跟洛杉磯去完成兩單打生意。於是就跟已往一樣﹐她的丈夫就跟她說﹕[親愛的﹐我們延遲去渡假的時間好嗎? 因為這兩單生意對公司真的很重要﹐說不定因著這兩單生意我能升職加薪呢~]。而作為老婆的她除了能做出無言的抱怨﹐她還能如何呢? 在公司的安排下她的丈夫就飛往波士頓去﹐波士頓的這單生意很順利的成交了。於是他的丈夫在九月十一號這一天﹐也就是事件發生的當天﹔他的丈夫就被安排從波士頓飛往洛杉磯去做另一單生意。可是就在這一天大約在九點左右的早上﹐我的朋友突然接到了她丈夫的電話。一通形成了他倆話離別的最後一通電話﹐一同只是來得及說愛彼此的電話﹔也是一通讓彼此都帶著太多來不及的分別電話。那麼如果那丈夫是你﹐你會選擇在你最後一個小時裡﹐說些什麼做些什麼呢?

但如果那丈夫是我﹐又或許我知道我的生命就只剩下一個小時﹐我想我能做的事情實在太少了。因此我想我只會選擇做三樣事情。第一件事﹐我會打電話給我得罪過的人和我的好朋友。我要借著這一通電話跟他們道歉﹐還有個我的朋友們道別。第二件事就是再打個有視線電話回去給我的媽媽﹐爸爸﹐和我的親人。雖然我知道在這一通電話裡我所能說的東西已經不多了﹐但我也希望能夠借此機會再聽聽他們的聲音和再看看他們每一個人最後一次。而在這當中讓自己在回味一遍﹐家人對自己每次的千叮萬囑﹔讓自己在最後的時段裡再從溫那窩心的親情。

而我最後一樣會做的是﹐打我最後一次電話給我愛的人。我會在電話裡先問侯她﹐然後再告訴她我要走了。我會停一停﹐靜靜地聽到她泣聲。過後我會告訴她﹐我會在天上看守她﹔只要她有心事時都可以抬頭望天﹐我會在那裡聽她起訴。更要她勇敢的為我好好活下﹐甚至是去開始自己的新生活。而在我生命中的最後幾分鐘﹐我想我不會再多說些什麼。反而是清唱出光良的<<童話>>。。。“我会变成童话里﹐ 你爱的那个天使﹔张开双手﹐变成翅膀守护你。。。就一直唱到氣斷離開。

人生的道路上有許多事是再在所難免的﹐尤其是災難與病痛永遠讓我們防不勝防。

因此人的一生中始終會遇上我們的三個“朋友” ﹐那就是“失去” ﹐“遺憾” 跟“珍惜” 。我只希望我不會先遇上“失去” ﹐而是先結識到“珍惜” 。希望自己懂得去珍惜跟身邊所有的人不管是家人, 愛人還是朋友所擁有的每一刻。那麼那怕在遇上“失去” 時會減少點自己一生中的太多來不及﹐那也就是帶著最後一個朋友“遺憾” 離開。

Hard To Say I'm Sorry ---Chicago

2008-01-21T20:45:00.000+08:00

"Everybody needs a little time away,"
I heard her say, "from each other."
"Even lover's need a holiday far away from each other."

Hold me now. It's hard for me to say I'm sorry.
I just want you to stay.

After all that we've been through,
I will make it up to you. I promise to.
And after all that's been said and done,
You're just the part of me I can't let go.

Couldn't stand to be kept away;
just for the day from your body.
Wouldn't wanna be swept away,
far away from the one that I love.

Hold me now.
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry.
I just want you to know.

Hold me now.
I really want to tell you I'm sorry.
I could never let you go.

After all that we've been through,
I will make it up to you. I promise to.
And after all that's been said and done,
You're just the part of me I can't let go.After all that we've been through,
I will make it up to you. I promise to.

You're gonna be the lucky one.

Story from a husband

2007-12-14T21:00:00.000+08:00

To my married and unmarried friends:

This is a very touching story, please read it slowly, I've read it more than twice....

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy.. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife.. But I couldn't help doing so.

I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.

Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry.. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever.. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

Very touching, right? If you think it's touching, please forward it to your friends and me too, if you think it's not touching at all, just ignored this email.

Tagged: The Number 38

2007-11-27T19:43:00.000+08:00

Tagged: The Number 38

The number 38!

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night.
My friend at work--Elaine Tan

2. What were you doing at 0800?
Office (DELL)==Generating Quotation

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Reach Home from Office (DELL)

4. What happened to you in 2006?
Myself and my beloved god-son got serious disease

5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
"Why i can contact customer and they always said the phone number can't get to customer".

6. How many beverages did you have today?
Lots of H2O

7. What color is your hairbrush?
Gray

8. What was the last thing you paid for?
Lunch

9. Where were you last night?
Sweet Home

10. What color is your front door?
Dark Brown

11. Where do you keep your change?
In my pocket

12. What’s the weather like today?
Rainy

13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
Mins

14. What excites you?
Nothing

15. Do you want to cut your hair?
I just cut my hair.

16. Are you over the age of 25?
Yeah...kinda over

17. Do you talk a lot?
Yes, my job seek

18. Do you watch the O.C.?
Nope.

19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
No

20. Do you make up your own words?
"Elek"

21. Are you a jealous person?
Not really.

22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.
Adrian, Andrea, Andrew, Annie, Anna, Anne, Alaina,

23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.
Nope

24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?
My dad

25. What does the last text message you received say?
Juliana# XXX You called me? ANything?

26. Do you chew on your straw?
Nope.

27. Do you have curly hair?
Nope

28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?
Hong Kong Next Year Travel

29. Who’s the rudest person in your life?
No one

30. What was the last thing you ate?
White Bread

31. Will you get married in the future?
Not in plan

32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
Supernatural Seasons 3

33. Is there anyone you like right now?
Fung

34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
15 minutes ago

35. Are you currently depressed?
Been depress for long

36. Did you cry today?
Yes, coz I missed someone

37. Why did you answer and post this?
Just for fun

DELL CONVERSION

2007-09-18T20:29:00.000+08:00

After 4 months rejoining DELL from a long break as temp,
today I finally got my conversion letter from HR.
It's not a surprise to me at all,
may be I was told by my team leader---Elaine, my friend at DELL;
long before I got the notice.
May be this is the road that I supposed to take for now,
don't ask me to plan for future becoz I really don't interested in it.
I just do whatever that's required for the day,
just like the farmer spreading the seeds in the farm.
For what I got up till now,
I just praise HIM,
Father, thank you for giving me all these,
thank you for all including those that I don't really like.
Because I know that's the lesson that I need to learn,
on my way towards my ends.
I know You would be here with me,
when you taken away someone I really love from me.
I am weak but you're strong,
you're strong to cover me, to protect me and to guide me.

想走

2007-09-09T19:08:00.000+08:00

心已倦了 ﹐ 意也冷了。
工作雖然平淡 ﹐ 一日復一日 ﹐
但到頭來我得到的又是什麼 ﹖
我得到什麼 ﹐ 我放棄了所有。
換來的卻只是一差白撤 ﹐
我真的累了。。。。。。
對我最好的只有妳。。。。。。
但妳走了。。。走了。。。。。
不管我再怎麼去呼喚 ﹐ 妳都不會再回來。
我真的沒有勇氣再走下去 ﹐
我不想活了。。。。我真的想死。
想去找妳 ﹐ 找我所夢幻的人。
找這輩子最愛我的人 ﹐ 我錯了。。。。
我不該放棄妳。。。。。不該。。。。
沒有了妳我的夢不再完美 ﹐
失去了妳我的生活不再有意。
我實在走不下去了 ﹐ 我好好累。
世上再沒有我牽掛的 ﹐
世上也再沒有我眷念。
我留下與離開都是一樣 ﹐
我走了反而減輕了人的負擔。
那留下又有什麼意思 ﹐
到不如灑脫的離去。

好疲倦。。。。

2007-08-30T09:00:00.000+08:00

上個星期因為偏頭線發炎而又入院﹐
雖然已比較好了但喉嚨就是覺得不太舒適。
但我依然照常上班﹐從早到晚都只是做個不停。
或許我根本不想停下來﹐
只有在忙碌中我才不會去勾起那些回憶
除了工作以外﹐我真的不懂我的心還想做什麼。
上帝啊~
我的疲倦﹐我心倦求您拿走。
主啊~
我真的不想再受心靈疲憊的折磨﹐
帶走那疲憊的我﹐賜給健全的我。
主啊~
我依然期盼您的恩典臨到我家
主啊~
我求您救救我恩恩﹐
讓他早日康復﹐讓他早日健全。
這已是我現在唯一的期望與盼望

车祸。。。中的平安

2007-07-22T15:03:00.001+08:00

四个多月前的某一天晚上，
我和朋友出去游玩，在回家的途中；
遇上了车祸。

当我的车子开到分叉路口的红灯时，
一辆默多骑士逆着方向向着我的去路奔驰而来。
他撞向了我的车，整个人扑向我车子的大镜。
下车一看我的车灯和大镜被他一撞而破裂毁坏了。
当看着大镜的破裂，我的心也随而撕裂了。
我心疼极了。。。我当时完全无语能言。。。

心中的极痛失是无法能弥补的，
到了今天我还在寻找我的车灯；
毕竟这辆车是一辆上了年级的车，
再加上它是当时的限量版的车。
这就更是难上加难了。。。。

但愿我那封电邮到日本的总公司会有所帮助，
他们能早日帮我寻到车灯吧。
横祸的降临真的是任你怎么想避也避不开的。

这四个多月来的无奈与心疼。。。
真的太难熬了，
但依然感谢神，如不是他在保护我；
那个人不是扑裂我车的大镜，
而是现场扑碎我车的大镜；
那么我和我的朋友也就会可能当场毁容了。

感谢上帝让我在危险中依然得到他格外的平安。。。。

Advantages to Work in International Company

2007-07-15T12:07:00.000+08:00

Business is everywhere in the world when there is people around it, so does the existing of firms, organizations and companies. A company in law simply refers to a legal entity formed which has a separate legal identity from its members, and is ordinarily incorporated to undertake commercial business. Companies in most parts of the world can generally grouped into two of which is the local company and international company. Local company usually refers to company just operate within a certain country, county or even just in a certain area.

On the other hand, international company mostly refer as multinational corporation(MNC) of which is an enterprise that manages production establishments or delivers services in at least two countries. Multinational corporations have played an important role in these days especially when the world’s business has moving towards globalization, and it can be said that out of 100 largest economies in the world there will be at 51 of them are multinational corporations.

Furthermore, very large multinational corporations have a powerful influence in the international relations as they have budgets that can exceed those of many countries. This is because they have large economic influence in the politicians’ representative districts, such as Microsoft the computer software’s company and Morley one of the world largest cigarettes manufacturing company have some influence in the America politic; as well as these multinational corporations have their extensive financial resources available for public relations and political lobbying.

Meanwhile the multinational corporations also facing some challenges, as they must compete with other MNCs and the local existing companies as well as the new entrances in the market. Many multinational corporations have voted employee as their most important investments or most important resources. For example Dell has set that employees are the reason for it success to gain customers interest among other competitors. In order for some multinational corporations to control their employees’ turnover rate, and to maintain the specialists they have in the company, they have practices some effective ways and techniques.

First of all the technique is giving good compensations and benefits to their employees. For example Intel Corporation’s compensation and benefits package that given to their employees. Intel is known as a successful building block supplier to the worldwide Internet economy by hiring the best and brightest people to work for them. Intel also believe employees are the most important investment for success that if they shared the success with their employees who have helped us earn it, will make the employees feel satisfaction and fulfillment to the company and that will lead them to contribute more to the company in return. Intel’s comprehensive benefits and compensation packages to their employees are also reflected on that belief of employees are the most important investment for success.

The comprehensive benefits and compensation packages of Intel to their employees have including the two types of bonus programs, of which is the Employee Cash Bonus Plan (ECBP). The ECBP is a profit-sharing program that tied directly to Intel's financial performance. Under this program, certain Intel employees will be rewarded through a cash payout twice each year; of which is an over inception plan that is the corporate average of 7.7% of annual eligible income or 20 days pay. Beside the ECBP there is another bonus program, the Employee Bonus which is based on personal and business group performance, as well as corporate earnings per share. Under this bonus program the reward will be paid out only once each year and the reward will be figures as much as 1 to 4% of the employee’s eligible earnings.

Furthermore at Intel Corporation’s compensation and benefits package, their employees might own a stake in the company by going through the Intel's Stock Option Plan. Under this plan, Intel’s full and part-time employees may be eligible to receive options based on their past performance and anticipated future contributions. In order to show Intel’s sincerity to their employees, all employees are encouraged to enroll in the Stock Participation Plan. This is the program that offers employees an opportunity to purchase Intel stock at a price lower than the fair market value through convenient payroll deductions. This Stock Option Plan is to make Intel’s employees feel more self belonging to Intel, so indirectly the employees will contribute more as subconsciously they will be treating Intel as their own company.

Under these whole Intel Corporation’s compensation and benefits package, Intel offers a variety of important benefit programs to protect the well-being of the employees as well as their eligible family members, which are including the same-sex domestic partners. Intel has offering comprehensive medical, dental, vision, disability and group life insurance coverage to the employees and a voluntary coverage options for their family members under the benefits program from the very first day of his or hers employment.

In addition, if the employee was and is working in US Intel Corporation’s compensation and benefits package, then every seven years, all the regular full-time employees over in the United States will be entitled to an eight-week sabbatical with pay. In order for the employees to have normal vacation and some personal time off, Intel also offer a competitive vacation program in the U.S., and an additional nine holidays as well as a "floating" holiday every year.

Last but not the least, Intel employees who have made an impact to the company will not go unrecognized; as Intel's award systems will be recognizing and encouraging the employee individual outstanding performance in the Intel Corporation’s compensation and benefits package. The awards range will be from a formal recognition at the corporate level to spontaneous employee-to-employee awards that presented at the department level.

Besides offering comprehensive compensations and benefits to employees, multinational corporations also realized that childcare issues can cost millions of dollars each year in lost productivity and turnover as the parents will be disrupted at work when their childcare is unreliable or in poor quality. Multinational corporations learnt about working parents are in need of childcare help, and traditional childcare solutions do not adequately address the needs of many employees through employee surveys. So some multinational corporations such as Intel and Ford have had a pretax childcare benefit and relationships with national childcare providers for some years, and these two multinational corporations have taking a more greater steps to provide more support for parents and guardians in the back couple of years. Intel has taken the best address unique childcare needs for their employees by taking the site-based approach to childcare, as Intel in Israel has partnered with the community to support childcare centers located near Intel facilities providing services, and in Intel Ireland has implemented an on-site resource and referral service to help employees locate childcare; as well as Intel Malaysia has offered an on-site preschool.

Furthermore multinational corporations also noticed that employees’ self-development outside the office is also just as important as the development inside the office. For that reasons multinational corporations will also offer a variety of training services and programs to further shaping up their employees' lives throughout every level in their careers. Some multinational corporations have even giving their employees opportunity to further study with either its own university or other universities; as well as sending their employees to overseas for training.

Last but not the least, multinational corporations often provide a greater career growth to their employees as their employees are encouraged and given opportunities to challenge themselves in the corporation. Some multinational corporations even have a high challenge for their employees as the average of employee moves to a new position will be within every 18-24 months.

It is because of all the comprehensive benefits, compensations, childcare services, training and education, as well as higher career growth opportunity that have given me greater interest to work with an international or multinational company rather than to work with a local and lower potential company if I were ever given to chance. Although I realize that the pressure and the workload to work under big company like multinational company will be much higher than local company.

許久。。。許久

2007-07-11T08:14:00.000+08:00

自從在戴爾上班後﹐我的人生除了工作外還是工作。

這裡也很少上來寫了﹐是沒有時間還是。。。

其實應該說自從妳離開後﹐我再也沒有任何人生情趣。

已往我的努力是為了我倆的家﹐

所以在香港那段日子﹐雖是辛苦但總是覺得甜蜜的。

但如今我的生活是那麼那麼的刻板﹐

早上老早就起床﹐上班去。

我從不知道我的努力求上到底是為了什麼﹐

我每日的埋頭工作又是為了什麼﹐

因為我的目標隨著妳而去了。

我如今只是一副空殼﹐每天就這樣的做。

每一天就像是Generate Quotation和收聽員的機器一般的做個不停。
一直到了晚上才帶著一副像似上完戰場的俘虜生心歸去。

生病了也照常上班﹐除非到了完全倒在床起不來。

否則我絕不請一天假﹐

我像似要折磨死自己似的。

我可以說是在進行一項“慢性自殺”。

我很喜歡“歸去”這個字眼﹐因為這兩年在我意念中的仿彿就是它。

好想。。。好想能夠面臨這天早些﹐

早日歸去﹐土歸土﹐塵歸塵。

不再有任何眷念﹐不再有任何牽掛。

楓。。。。我到底要到何時才能再見到妳。。。。。

Sexual harassment

2007-07-03T23:06:00.000+08:00

Sexual harassment is a wide spectrum of offensive behavior toward a sexual nature, typically in the workplace or other setting where raising of objections and refusing may lead negative consequences to themselves. Sexual harassment rationally referred toward women being sexual abuse rather than to men and it is usually more sensitive over in the West than the East, especially the United States of America.

This is because women were sexually harassed long before there was even a word for it. From the history of US, we see that under slavery, women or I should say African American women were usually sexually abused by their white masters. After industrialization came in, women started to work in factories and offices where they had to endure another type of sexual comments and demands by bosses and coworkers as the price for survival.

Women live under this type of conditions for decades and centuries, which was long enough until women started to voice out for themselves. Even though sexual harassment was recognized as a legal claim for sex discrimination at work under Title VII of the Civil Rights Act of 1964, long before it was commonly accepted as harmful.

Women began to speak in public for the first time about this form of sexual abuse in the mid-1970s. That was in May 1975 when The Women's Center at Cornell University held the first Speak Out; whereby the feminists in Boston and women workers in New York formed action groups. This was the very first time where the words "sexual harassment" has emerged to describe and give coherence, communality, and communicability to an experience that women previously had no choice but to consider just life.

Since then sexual harassment is considered a form of illegal discrimination in the United States of America. The harassment must impact individuals of a specific sex in a discriminatory manner in order to be considered as sexual harassment, for example any unwelcome sexual advance or conduct on the job, having the effect of making the workplace intimidating, hostile or offensive.

Today sexual harassment not only referring just on women being sexual abused and discriminated by men or vice versa but also looking into same sex harassment over in the workplace. This is because men or women are capable of sexually harassing other men or women, and it does not manner whether their personal sexual orientation is heterosexual or homosexual. This is because a heterosexual man can sexually harass a homosexual or a heterosexual man.

好想你

2007-06-30T00:30:00.000+08:00

不经不觉中日子已过两年了，
两年前的这个日子你悄悄的走了。
狠心憋下我一个，
两年来我都毋法将你系我心中撇去。
好想你~
我除了工作以外，我的生活的确没什么乐趣可言。
这一生中最让我回味的日子，
就是跟你在一起的日子，
有你在身边怎么疲劳也觉得幸福。
可是如今我除了麻木的去过每一天外，
再无所觉了，我其实真的做人做得好累。
好想早点去找你。。。好想再揽住你。

Sodomy Law and Religion Influences

2007-05-18T17:24:00.000+08:00

A sodomy law is a law makes in 1533 by adopting contemporary church doctrine and follows by mostly the western people during the England withdrawal from the Catholic Church, which makes certain sexual acts into sex crimes. The term sodomy has in the past been used to refer to any deviant sexual act, often deemed so because such does not lead to procreation; for those who found violated from the sodomy law may caused themselves a death penalty.

This sodomy law has a close relation with the second factor of barrier for people to accept lesbians or homosexuals in human community of which is the forbidden of god under Christianity and Judaism. Sodomy is a word derives from the name of the ancient city of Sodom, which was a city destroyed by God for its sins that can be found in the common interpretation of the Bible. It is known among the Christian and Judaism that God strictly hate fags or God strictly forbid homosexuality.

This is because according to the book of Genesis chapter 18 verse 20 until chapter 19 verse 29in the Old Testament of the NIV Bible has clearly noted about the story God destroyed the city of Sodom and Gomorrah; and do not have sexual relation with a man as you have with a woman, that's detestable is stated in Leviticus chapter 18 verse 22 to discourage people having the homosexual relation.

In addition according to the New Testament from NIV Bible, under the book of Roman 1:26-27 mention that therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another. They exchanged the truth of God for a lie and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator who is forever praised. Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lusts. Even their women exchanged natural relations for natural ones. In the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with lust for one another. Men committed indecent acts with other men and received in themselves the due penalty for their perversion.

An even more clear view about God hates homosexual relationship is noted as do you not know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral not idolaters not adulterers nor male prostitutes nor homosexual offenders nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.(1 Corinthians chapter 6 verse 9-10 from the New Testament of the NIV Bible)

Lastly in the book of Jude it mention again regarding to the sins of Sodom and Gomorrah, as in verse 7 it state that in a similar way, Sodom and Gomorrah and the surrounding towns gave themselves up to sexual immorality and perversion. They serve as an example of those who suffer the punishment of eternal fire. (Jude verse 7 from the New Testament of the NIV Bible).

On the other hand, both Taoism and Buddhism do not forbid exclusive homosexuality. Taois is usually stressed upon the relationship between yin and yang of which are the two opposing forces which maintain harmony through balance. Yin is about all things that are feminine and yang is all things that are masculine. Therefore heterosexuality is a physical and emotional embodiment of the harmonious balance between yin and yang whereas homosexuality is seen as the union of two yins or two yangs meaning that equal to nothing to lost or gained especially women were said to have an unlimited yin essence under Taoism teaching. So female homosexuality was widespread under Taoism teaching during the Chou Dynast, but male homosexuality was rare. In fact male homosexuality was forbidden because it was considered a complete loss of yang essence on the part of both men.

Buddhists have a different view on sexuality as they believe that sexual activity whether heterosexual or homosexual is a manifestation of human greed. Furthermore Buddhism has no scriptural basis upon which homosexuality is to be condemned. According to Theravada Buddhist teaching stated that all relationships including gay, lesbian and straight, are often considered personal matters of mutual consent. As long as the relationship promotes the happiness and well-being of both parties, then it should be positive and acceptable. So many Buddhists believe that sexual orientation is beyond a person's control, as are race and gender and they feel that gays and lesbians should have the same civil rights and benefits as do all other persons.

Similarly, Hindu society and Hinduism were previously much more open to variations in human sexuality than they are at present, it is proven through the ancient Hindu temples and artifacts that are openly depicted both gays and lesbianism within their carvings. Furthermore in Hinduism many divinities are androgynous and the Hindu deities who are hermaphrodite of which the divinities manifest in all three genders by switching from male to female or from female to male.

So by the way of the linkage between Confucianism with Taoism and Buddhism, homosexuality is supposed to be acceptable within the Confucianism. It is supposed to say so because according to Confucian thought if a person loving and sexual relations between individual no matter heterosexual or same sex will be traditionally accepted as long as their behaviors and actions do not impede one's fulfilling one's obligations to the family and the state.

This is because these three types of religion believe in reincarnation after death. They believe that if a man may perform homosexual intercourse with another living male, will be causing byhis past life. In order for him to "complete" the heterosexual relationship of the past life, they could then conduct acts that are homosexual because of his male form in this life. They also believed that a female may be reincarnated as a male if she did some good deeds especially those deeds that were related to chastity during her past life. Thenthe altar God for her to being reincarnated into a male form in her next life. (Taoist Holy Books -Zhuang Zi). However homosexuality was discouraged in Confucianism because it would prevent a son from carrying out his Confucian religious duty to reproduce. the former was his female lover in she may be "rewarded" by

Like its sister religions Judaism and Christianity, Islam is inherently homophobic, Islam even refer homosexuality as kind of deadly disease. According to Dr Muzammil Siddiqi of the Islamic Society of North America established that homosexuality is a moral disorder. It is a moral disease, a sin and corruption. Besides, Jamaat-e-Islami from Pakistan has said that homosexuality is unlawful in Islam and it is neither accepted by the state nor by the Islamic Society. Ahmadiyya Muslim Jama’at from Canada also agreed that homosexuality is utterly contrary to every natural law of human and animal life.

Similarly to the Bible, the Qu’ran has clearly mentioned that homosexuality is condemnatory through a few chapters and verses in the Qu’ran. For example a possible reference to lesbians who are to be confined for life can be found in Qu’ran chapter 4 verses 16 of which stated “If two men among you commit indecency, punish them both” as well as “You lust after men instead of women. Truly, you are a degenerate people” that can be see through Qu’ran chapter 7 verses 80 to verse 81. Lastly the Qu’ran mentioned again about homosexuality is condemnatory through “Do you commit indecency with your eyes open, lustfully seeking men instead of women? Surely you are an ignorant people.” (Qu’ran chapter 27 verse 54 to verse 58– 27:54-58.)

Although the Qur’an is ambiguous about the exact punishment, the death penalty may be inferred as those guilty of homosexuality in the last two references above were destroyed by rain (Qu’ran chapter26 verse165 to verse168). The Hadith show a more explicit way regarding to what should be done by given a few examples; such as according to Tirmidhi state that kills the one who sodomises and the one who lets it be done to him.” And Tabarani after consider that death is the penalty for adultery; he said that “Lesbianism by women is adultery between them.” Lastly Sunan Abu Dawud, 38:4448 emphasized that “If a man who is not married is seized committing sodomy, he will be stoned to death.”

There are some Islamic countries that will tolerated indeed of times and places such as if they done it privately. However, if the religion has been seriously taken in the authorities and laws enforced country, then results for sexual minorities will be dire. For example, in April 2001, nine gay men were given prison terms of 4 to 5 years with 2400 to 2600 lashes in Saudi Arabia. Abdul Sami (18) and Bismillah (22) were killed by the Taliban by having a wall toppled on them in 1998.

In addition to Islamic promiscuity is very wrong practice that should not be performed by Muslim. One of the reason promiscuity is wrong because AIDS is easily spread through promiscuity and to the Muslims’ knowledge many of the homosexuals are usually promiscuous and very few of the homosexuals practice monogamous. Islamic also take concern of the issue that promiscuity spread disease, will lead us to the last but not the least factor of barrier for the lesbian acceptance within the heterosexual community.

To summarize, homosexuality is viewed as unnaturalness on the religious, ethical and moral stance. Acts of homosexuals are viewed very negatively because of their differences with the heterosexuals. Certain degree of misunderstandings towards homosexuals may be contained if the heterosexual perspective and moral stance are always project on them without deep exploration. Lack of proper education on homosexuality is a key factor contributing to such misunderstandings. To be more objective, people cannot conclude that homosexual behavior is immoral in a civil society. It is because we cannot impose the biblical principals or the Qu’ran principals on everyone and in fact not all people have such religious faiths as well as not all people practice Christianity nor Islamic.

HoW mUCh yoU KnOw About GAY?

2007-05-18T17:09:00.001+08:00

It’s a said that if there are people there will be problem, people who acknowledge them as civilized try hard to seek and perform justice and fairness. However even under Law and legal there always existing of unfairness and unequal situation. There’s always complains regarding to people affected by labor market discriminations such as national minorities, ethnic, women, and disabled workers, as well as religious and sexual minorities. These people usually will be facing unfavorable labor market outcomes, and these unfavorable outcomes usually can be identified through differential earning wages, promoting opportunities and even through hiring procedures.

The world is undergoing a rapid change of traditional religious to a modern cultural norm values society. Dyke can be said is a new fact that being subjected in interest of questions and debates over in the developed countries such as the United State of America, and England. Especially the heat of the gay right movements are increasing day by days, as they are seeking for acceptance, tolerance and equal opportunities in these societies.

A brief historical, different cultural and different religious, biological, psychological and the view of nature and nurture background of lesbians in the world is to be described as follows. However the issue regarding to the lesbian history should be separated from the gay male history need to be considered. Basically we would want to specify lesbian history from the large overview of queer history but there are some difficulties of doing so especially from the ancient homosexual history because the ancient history is really controversy over male rather than female.

Homosexual is a word literally to translate “same-sex sex” that is taken from the words of Greek and Latin. However the word homosexual today has been referring to a sexual desire, sexual orientation characterized by aesthetic attraction, and romantic love that exclusively only towards members of the same gender identity.

As from a well known historical perspective, of which we known that the word lesbian is derived from an island called Isle of Lesbo. This development is indirectly influenced by poems of Sappho of Mytilene, who was born around the time of 612 B.C and the daughter of Scamandronymus and Cleia in Isle of Lesbos. As Sappho used an ancient Greek dialect called lesbian language that belongs to the Aeolic group to write poetry that was celebrating the love between women.

However the truth is nobody really knows the exactly time, place and the first person to fall in love with the other same-sex person. There is rumor that encounters Alexander the Great is gay because he loved his best friend Hephaestion more than his wife Roxane but the Greeks defend that Alexander the Great isn’t gay. Alexander the Great has passed away so long ago that didn’t left any evident to prove that he is or he is not gay.

Today there are many terms that can be used to interpreted homosexuals. First, there was the term "homosexual," then "gay" and "lesbian," then the once taboo "dyke" and "queer." But now as the expanding for the universe of gender and sexual identities, we got “gender queer” who are those that doesn't fit into the binary male-female system, “trannydyke” are those people that are different gender than the one assigned at birth as well as “boi” that refer to a biological female with a male presentation.

Will My Heart Be the SAME?

2007-05-18T16:36:00.000+08:00

昨晚收到表哥的短訊﹐
他謝謝我當日為了他去幫他跟他的女友游說。
那也是半年前的事了﹔
我從來沒告訴過他﹐
我會去幫他更沒想過讓他知道。
我不懂也不清楚他們現在如何了﹔
但能做到的我都已經幫了。
為人的我已經做盡了﹐
但自己呢?
或許我早已沒有了自己吧﹐
除了工作以外我真的不知道﹐
我還有什麼。。。。
生命仿彿除了工作就是睡覺了。
很多人叫我放生自己﹐
但有誰知我不曾這樣做過呢 ?
我只是不願再受掉入陷阱﹐
或許不會有人會再像我那樣笨﹐
那樣傻的付出真心。
人或許就是虛偽的。。。。
工作不累是我的內心累﹐
累極了。。。。。。
好想。。。好想。。。。

Lonely Night

2007-04-30T22:28:00.000+08:00

Just finished my exam.....nothing to do ......
Plan to go out for a drink with friends....
But my friend got something turn up so have to cancel.......
It's Monday night.........there isn't coolzy wind....
there isn't any bright shinning star..........
there isn't any moon.........
Just like my feeling.......nothing but nothing.........
There is no what so call excitement nor boring........
No matter what you feel how you feel.......
You still have to go on with it.........

So I take out a DVD and watch for the night......
"All About Love" starring by Andy Lau and Charlie Yeung.
No matter how many times I have watched before.........
It's still touch my heart like it always do........
My tears.......drop.......and drop.....
My heart still feeling the hurt and the pain..........
The pain that I thought I have left it behind.........
I still miss you............miss you so much...........
You used to spend the night with me.........
After my exam when I was in States...........
I used to cuddle you to sleep..........
But now I am just a lonely fella.........
A lonely fella that you left behind............

Limitation and Problem of Diversification

2007-04-29T03:10:00.000+08:00

Since there is numerous of advantages to apply diversification, definitely there will be certain of limitation and failures of applying diversification. First limitation that will be encountered by PepsiCo during applying diversification was the bureaucratic costs and control. This is because control and bureaucratic costs of PepsiCo will be increased as the scope of its diversification widen once they planned to diversify its corporation. This is because diversification eventually will lead to decentralization within the corporation, especially during the merger with Frito-Lay as Pepsi-Cola would have to shift its resources and to make a huge movement into some unknown areas that will enquire huge decentralization of power from Pepsi-Cola into PepsiCo. This sometimes might lead to an over-decentralized situation where by the top managers of PepsiCo becomes isolated and even out-of-touch with his down management people.

Moreover an extensive diversification tends to depress rather than improve the profitability of an organization of which was experimented by PepsiCo when it acquired Mountain Dew, and created Pepsi blue. This acquisition intends to improve the quality of the company’s product and to boost up the product sales. However Pepsi blue was in fact was not as successful as hoped or planned.

Widen diversification such as PepsiCo might cause the company to be inability to identify the unique profit contribution by its business unit as well as to create an information overloaded situation within the organization. This is because PepsiCo shares its resources with other units such as Frito-Lay, Quaker Oats, and Mountain Dew. Once again this will caused the costs in these large, complex organizations to arise due to its managerial inefficiencies.

Lastly but not the least, there always a situation where by there would be some diversification failure cases. There would be diversification failure case when the diversification value is likely to be dissipates. Coca-cola has faced it when Coca-cola acquired Columbia Pictures and wine-producing businesses whereas PepsiCo suffered the acquisition error costs when it acquired the several fast food restaurants such as Kentucky Fried Chicken, Pizza Hut and Taco Bell as PepsiCo chain of distribution. This is because the acquisition has allowing its competitor Coca-Cola to secure rights of distribution in chains such as McDonald’s and Wendy’s who have a greater market share than either Pizza Hut, Taco Bell or even Kentucky Fried Chicken. This acquisition has caused a short term loss to PepsiCo whereby it suffers high cost rather than it was supposed to create value in the acquisition of these restaurants as its chain of distribution.

Eventually I know that the company of Pepsi-Cola has increased its net product sales after all the diversification mergers and acquisition. However it was not the real increase of Pepsi-Cola because the sales have increased due to all the new acquisitions and not because of its increased sales. For this reason I think that PepsiCo should consolidate its old products and try to increase its sales; of which means PepsiCo reconstructed its Pepsi-Cola, International Beverage sector.

I would advise that Pepsi should try to expand more on the certain geographical areas. By instead of just having one division based in New York, PepsiCo Beverages International should separate this division into several divisions for the rest of the world like in Asia, Europe etc.

Besides PepsiCo should focuses more on in the international marketplace as their key area of success for its future. It should enter into these globalize markets with enough resources and a good management structure in place before Coca-Cola. This in order to convince the consumers in it regarding about the Pepsi taste is the best.

Moreover PepsiCo should continue to pursue the Chinese and to operation in the Chinese market as an attempt to compete with Coca-Cola Enterprises. For the Chinese market, is one of the largest markets in the world for most organization including Pepsi-cola. Nevertheless PepsiCo should pay more attention of not getting involved itself against in any political scandals here in China. This is because China is totally has a different cultural, locally and governmental level than its local America and other global countries such as Mexico.

In addition PepsiCo should be aware that the old age of Pepsi-cola v Coca-cola has ended. This is because beside Pepsi-Cola and Coca-Cola, there are other up-and-coming beverage companies, such as Cott. So in order for PepsiCo to be succeeded in creating a successful company and as a dominant place in the market, PepsiCo should be outstanding enough in order to beat not only Coca-cola and Cott but others as well.

In order for PepsiCo to be outstanding enough, PepsiCo now not only has diversified food chain companies but also to more be involved in the entertainment industry. This is because entertainment industry can help to build strong reputation among consumers. The Pepsi World should also include or involve more in sport and music rather than just beverages and snack food. For example that Pepsi signed Michael Jackson in the 80’s for its advertisement and later sponsored in Michael albums and concert. Now PepsiCo has signed an agreement for sponsorship in the NFL, the largest football league in the US. I can see that PepsiCo will have great coverage at all games, enabling them to target their young and hip market. Moreover PepsiCo held a big celebration’s concert in Hong Kong in year 2003 and charity concert yearly over in Hong Kong.

Benefits of Diversification to PepsiCo

2007-04-29T03:09:00.000+08:00

PepsiCo definitely has enjoyed several benefits from applying diversification of merger and acquisition in its strategy of expanding its markets. But there are so many benefits that can gain from applying related diversification and unrelated diversification, and not all of the benefits have benefited PepsiCo. Advantages that shared by organization when applying related and unrelated diversification are listed in the below exhibit.

Related Diversification	Unrelated Diversification
Spreading risks	Spreading risks
Access to information	Escape from present business
Control of supplies in Quantity, Quality and Price.	Need to use excess cash or safeguard profits
Control Markets	Personal values or objectives of powerful figures
Cost savings	Benefits from synergistic effects
Resource utilization	Exploiting underutilized resources and competences
Building on core competences and technology	Even out cyclical effects in a given sector

Since the year of 1965 after merging with Frito-Lay, PepsiCo was able to increase its volume of sales and get a stronger market position through using diversification techniques and brand management. This has make PepsiCo to able to escape from its present business, because even until present days the Pepsi’s carbonated beverages division clearly remains behind the snack division in terms of profitability and share percentage of operation earnings.

What’s more with the diversification strategy of management has enabled PepsiCo to spread it risk taken within the same area. This is because after take over Mountain Dew, Pepsi has turned heavily on its focus towards gaining a better position in the beverage industry by finding new ways to differentiate from Coke and to take advantage of strategic alliances in the market.

Diversification also gives chance to PepsiCo to control of its supplies and to exploit underutilized resources and competences especially when PepsiCo started its Pepsi Bottling Group (PBG) Strategy in March 1999. This is because with PBG, PepsiCo’s can focus on what it does best now, which is developing its powerful brands and the world-class marketing programs depending on PBG’s superior sales execution, customer service, merchandising and operating excellence. Meanwhile PBG not only was given right by Pepsi Co to produce PepsiCo’s products, but also given right by Cadbury Schweppes to do Dr. Pepper and their other products.

Lastly with diversification, merger and acquisition that have helped a lot in PepsiCo cost savings. This is because with the latest computer technology, all PepsiCo have to do is to invest in a new and more efficient communication computer system called “GenerationNet”. With this, it can enable PepsiCo to serve both, lower cost and customer responsiveness as well as to advertise and to promote all PepsiCo products up in the internet.

Until here, all that have been discussed are regarding to expound on the benefits of diversification. And a corporate in this must be diversified to some degree in order to be competitive in this globalize market; none of the corporations wishes to “put all their eggs in one basket” and expose themselves to the inherent risk of holding only one single business line. But how far can a corporation go in spreading their bet? Is there any problems and limits that will be suffered by corporation when they applied diversification?

Pepsi-Cola and its Diversification Strategy

2007-04-29T03:07:00.000+08:00

Who would never come across the name of PepsiCo in these present days? PepsiCo is a beverage brand name that has 100 years of history. It was started after there was a pharmacist called Caleb Bradham in the town of New Bern in North Carolina of the United State of America at year of 1896, when he tried to create drinks that would be delicious, healthy, aiding digestion and boosting energy. One of the drinks turned out to be very popular to his customer and was called as Brad’s drink.

Brad’s business was small and just conducted within an immediate territory. His business came to a change when the drink was named as “Pepsi” by the year of 1898 and was given its first logo and patented trademark. The hit of people going after Pepsi has given chances for Brad to transform the company into a fully-fledged business in the year of 1902.

From the year 1903 to 1908 it seems to be no problem at all for Pepsi-Cola to grow its popularity as a new soft drink in the markets. Not until the end of World War I when the price of sugar began to fluctuate wildly and caused Pepsi-Cola to bankruptcy in the year of 1923. On 7 March 1923, Roy C. Megargel paid $35,000 to the Craven Holding Corporation whom bought over Pepsi-Cola trademark and assets at auction for $30,000.

But after a few years, Megargel once again fail to lead Pepsi-Cola and caused Pepsi-Cola to suffer from agony loss or bankruptcy in the year of 1931. Pepsi-Cola then was taking over by Charles G. Guth and eventually started the most famous “Cola Wars”. During the moment of Charles G. Guth was an executive from the Loft Candy Company. The Coca-Cola Company had make Guth a victim as the Coca-Cola Company refused to give him a jobber's discount on syrup served at over 138 candy stores in the greater New York area. So in response to this snub, Guth purchased the sole rights to the trademark and the assets of the defunct Pepsi-Cola Company for $10,500 as well as to reformulate the formula for Pepsi-Cola syrup.

Guth successfully to bring Pepsi-Cola up to the front line with Coke-Cola and has become second largest soda beverage company in World even during the time of World War II. However Pepsi-Cola still lost to Coke-Cola until Pepsi-Cola was lead by Donald Kendall in the year of 1963.

Donald Kendall was the first person in Pepsi-Cola to implement diversification strategy in managing and leading Pepsi-Cola. First of all Donald Kendall started to imply the related diversification strategy by introducing new taste of Pepsi of which was the Patio Diet Cola. The type of cola that is without sugar and zero calories; but to contain the artificial sweetener aspartame; and it can be either sold with or without caffeine. Later on it was being replaced by Diet Pepsi-Cola in the year of 1964.

However this implementation of diversify related products did not help much in increasing Pepsi net sales and in winning sales from its competitors. This is because when Pepsi diversify its single line product of classic cola with two line product of Diet Pepsi-Cola, its competitors such as Coca-Cola would be doing the same thing of coming up with its new line product or Diet Coke. So in order for Pepsi-Cola to be able to achieve its specific goals of becoming World Number One beverages and to guarantee Pepsi long-term sustained achievement of "fast profitable growth" for their business.; they have to keep up with a rapidly increasing diversified global market and increased competition.

Donald Kendall as the CEO of Pepsi-Cola during that moment has also noticed the critical competitive advantage issue that was facing by Pepsi-Cola. So he led Pepsi-Cola to take a horizontal integration by taking over one of the Pepsi-Cola competitors, the Tip Corporation of America which producers of "Mountain Dew" in the year of 1964.

After taking over of “Mountain Dew”, Donald Kendall tended to apply the unrelated diversification by approaching Herman Lay the Frito-Lay’s CEO, in the year of 1965 with a proposition, “You make them thirsty and I’ll give them Pepsi.” With this complementary of Pepsi-Cola and Frito-Lay, then PepsiCo, Inc. (PepsiCo) was born and to be able to stay strong with Coke to continue the “Cola War”.

This is one of the greatest jobs that Donald Kendall brought to Pepsi-Cola, as this merger allowed PepsiCo to become one of the world’s largest manufacturers, marketers, and wholesalers of beverage and food products. This merger has given PepsiCo territories of at least 142,000 employees which operated in nearly 200 countries.

Undeniable that with this merger has helped Pepsi-Cola a lot especially to stay firm in size and to gain competitive advantages from the markets. However with this merger it has brought Pepsi-Cola into a more high competitive rivalry with others companies especially the four big organizations of which are the Coke, Proctor and Gamble, Lance and Kraft; that has nearly created an oligopoly market situation where by there only 4 suppliers with intense rivalry to supply for the snack and convenient food market.

In order for PepsiCo to gain strength and to be more competitive in the market, beside as part of this merger, PepsiCo has experienced growth in product diversification and distribution through the acquisition process. These acquisitions have included merger that is combining of two or more companies into a single corporation; such as merger PepsiCo with Quaker Oats, merger PepsiCo with Crack Jack sweet snack food, and merger PepsiCo with Tropicana brand juices; this is to expand PepsiCo’s economies of scale.

In addition, PepsiCo also acquired into several restaurants applying related diversification through forward integration, this is because restaurant is one of the distribution channel to supply soft drink to consumers. Pepsi acquired those most notably restaurants, such as Pizza Hut, Taco Bell, and Kentucky Fried Chicken, to form PepsiCo Food Service International (PFSI) in order for PepsiCo to focus on overseas development of restaurants.

In the recent year PepsiCo also applied the backward integration of related diversification strategy, by establishing its own bottling group through the Pepsi Bottling Group (PBG) Strategy in March 1999.

So what benefits that PepsiCo gain from applying these diversification strategies of merger and acquisition in diversifying and expanding its markets? Did PepsiCo suffer any cost from this implementation?

Diversification

2007-04-29T03:03:00.000+08:00

Since the 1980's, and even more in these twenty first centuries, diversification has become a new trend for companies to expand their businesses, including those whether is large or small, domestic or even foreign, to form strategic alliances within their particular industries; even though it has been argued that diversification in many companies did not led to good performance.. Diversification is known as measurement of the commonality for a population in science and mathematic whereas directions of development that bring an organization to out of its current markets and products are the meaning for diversification in business strategy.

Most people in this world doing their business in two ways, either to be divided “all eggs in different basket” of which means multiple business strategies or “all one’s eggs in one basket” of which means single business strategies. Single business strategies have its number of advantages because it is easier to control and easier to practice specialization, however it also carry its certain number of risks for it just like investing all the money into one, and the risk is often high for there is only either you gain all of it or you loss all you have.

The other way the multiple strategies or diversification is a better way to do business because that has help to spread up corporate risk across multiple industries. Diversification is only making sense when it has enhanced the shareholder value.

Diversification is originally divided into two broad ways, of which are the related diversification and the unrelated diversification. Related diversification simply means the entry of a new business activity that distinctly is a different kind of industry but with related to the existing organization’s value chains possess strategic “fit” in operations, marketing, management, R&D. distribution, labor, and also business activities.

There are three ways in directing related diversification, and the three ways are the backward integration of which organization implemented new business activities that are related to the inputs of current business such as raw materials or suppliers. Follow by the forward integration of which is another kind of developing new organization business activity that will be relating to the products of the organization such as its distribution channel. Lastly but not least is the horizontal integration of which is a new business strategy of integrating its market competitors or complementary to its current market interest.

On the other side, the unrelated diversification is the other way of entering into industries that obviously no connection of value chain interrelationships to any of the existing business value chain activities or even no common linkage of strategic that fit among the previous single business units. Unrelated diversification give opportunity for organization to venture into attractive industries that with solid potential of financial returns. Unrelated diversification also helps to spread the risk of businesses over its different division of industries in order to stabilize the corporate profitability.

There also three categories of directing an unrelated diversification strategy and extending to new products and markets through exploiting the current core competences of an organization is the one of the categories. Follow by diversification through exploiting the core competences that go beyond the existing market, in other word simply means to create a genuinely new market. The third category is one of the most extreme type of which it simply will create new competences for new market opportunities.

是愛還是恨

2007-04-18T14:36:00.000+08:00

很快﹐ 人的日子真快。。。
就這麼一眨眼就快半年了 ﹐
眼見07年就這麼一天天的過。
這兩年來我都是封鎖著我的心 ﹐
是愛的枷鎖還是恨的枷鎖﹔
我真的分不清﹐ 也講不明。
今天就用我最討厭的顏色來寫一些東西吧 ﹗
兩年前的四月﹐ 是我最倒霉的一個月﹔
這一個月也是我最痛心的 ﹐
跟一個交往一陣子的人散後才原來她一直都在騙我 ﹐
又失去了一輩子最愛的人。
我從不去恨分手的人﹐ 但這一個是例外的。
到現在我真的很不想聽有關於這個人的東西﹔
就連包括了她的名她的姓。
還好我的朋友當中﹐沒有這樣字言的人。
我不是真的或存心要去恨這個人﹐
但原來要100%去寬恕像這樣的騙子﹐
真的很難。。。因為只要聽到"司徒" 或 "昕",
我真個人就會變得失控而講出不理智的話。
真的太倒霉才會去遇上這樣的人﹐
從此我也不再去信任任何人。
同一年也失去了我這一輩子最愛的妳---楓﹐
失去了妳讓我完全掉入了深淵﹐
也做了最放縱的事 ﹐ 因為當我真的很想迷失自己。
但到今天我依然不知到底我是因為愛還是恨。。。。。
我真希望不會是恨﹐ 因為恨的感覺實在不好受。
但很多時候我真的無法控制我自己。。。
不去恨那個人跟不去想念楓。。。

清明節

2007-04-13T17:43:00.000+08:00

清明時節雨紛紛﹐路上行人欲斷魂。
但我每年都會去清明至少兩次﹐
今年的我也只有去兩次。
一次就在清明節時﹐另一次就在復活節。
只是相差不到一個月﹐但是那週圍的野草已經長了。
看看那墓碑﹐不經不覺舅舅你已經離開我們近10年了。
但這10年來我們都是乎沒把你忘記﹐
10 年的歲月也無法把你的影子挪走。
對你的點點滴滴一直都在我們的心中。
墓碑是冷冰冰的﹐但我們的心望著你的遺照時﹐
那心依然會流淚。。。
很多時候我們是多麼希望你不曾離開過﹐
多麼希望你依然存在﹐依然在我們的身旁。
直從你離開後﹐我也很久沒有再去海邊了。
記得小時候只有你會帶我去﹐ 好懷念有你在的時光啊。

別再煩----我

2007-04-12T22:42:00.000+08:00

別再問我同一個問題﹐這真的很煩的事啊。
別再問我心裡到底在牽掛著誰﹖
別再找我。。。別再煩。。。。
不想看到妳的訊息﹐
不想聽到妳的電話﹐
更不想再看到妳。。。
就當我們從不曾認識過﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗
或許我不該去結識妳﹐
因我心底愛的---只有她一個。。。。。

我從不曾放下她﹐也不曾忘記她。
即使在我們分手時﹐我依然只有她在心。
即使她已經不在了﹐但我心依然刻有她一個。
至於妳的問題我這一生都不會答﹐也不想答。
答了會傷了妳﹐我不想這樣。。。。

Human Greediness Impact to Natural Environment

2007-03-30T00:28:00.000+08:00

We are living in the 21^st century; a science and technology world that can fulfill us with great physical and psychological comfort. The technologies we have these days provide us with the luxury of convenience, by filling up our daily lifestyles with the latest technology household appliances, such as refrigerator, personal computers, indoor air conditioning, heating and plumbing, and personal automobiles that the used of “endless fuel” in the list is infinite. Meanwhile we are also living in a disposable society, where it is not common place to have material goods fixed, but rather replaced. This is because of our lifestyle that caused us to dispose almost everything in the need of our convenient. Everyday we dispose uncountable tons of diapers, water bottles, contacts, and paintbrushes as our convenience is never-ending.

This convenient lifestyle coupled with our massive desire for material goods has created immense devastation to our Mother Earth; such as radioactive contamination, soil contamination, water pollution and air pollution. It can be said that we are the reason for our Earth now to come across a major issue of global warming. As according to the NASA's Goddard Institute for Space Studies, 2005 was the warmest year since reliable, widespread instrumental measurements became available in the late 1800s, exceeding the previous record set in 1998 by a few hundredths of a degree Celsius.

Global warming is the observation of increase in the average temperature of the Earth's atmosphere and oceans. The increase in the global temperatures can direct the in turn cause for other changes; that will include the rising sea level with the rate of melting polar ice in the North Pole, and changes in the amount and pattern of precipitation. These changes may increase the frequency and intensity of extreme weather events, such as floods, droughts, heat waves, hurricanes, and tornados. Other consequences are including the higher or lower agricultural yields, glacier retreat, reduced summer stream flows, species extinctions and increases in the ranges of disease vectors.

The climate system varies both through natural the "internal" processes as well as in response to variations in external "forcing" that come from both human and non-human causes, such as the solar activity, volcanic emissions, and greenhouse gases. However our scientific world has come to the consensus that the greatest contributor to the global warming is man.

This is because we humans are generating greater amounts of greenhouse gases into the atmosphere, as in our daily lifestyles it requires us to burn tons of fossil fuels in order to generate enough electricity current. While we are burning these fossil fuels, in fact we are producing addition nitrous oxides, methane and carbon dioxide into the environment. Furthermore, deforestation for building up new cities, housing areas, and industrial areas also generated additional carbon dioxide into the air compound. The deforestation will lessen the amount of carbon dioxide being use for photosynthesis by the tress. Every time a land is being cleared for cattle grazing, actually billions of tons of carbon dioxide are released into the atmosphere. Other human activity such as using of automobiles cause the additional nitrogen compounds and ozone, along with consuming the fuel produced by burning fossil fuels, and CFC’s that are being used in refrigerators.

Our human nature has made us for not only taken granted of our environment, but also start to tearing apart our beautiful environment. After being civilized, we have neglected the nature we used to live in; we even start to destroy the natural environment through our daily lifestyles. We are no longer concern about our Mother Nature; all that we do from time to time are just to find ways to please our conveniences and pleasures.

The greediness in human nature is the main key that indirectly caused such a great impact to our Mother Nature and even to ourselves, as we did not and will not be satisfy with the condition we are living in. Living in caves was not of any comfort at all, so we deforested and built houses and cities. Eating fruits and seeds were not sufficient for us, so we hunted down animals such as chickens, cows, lambs, and pigs. Then when these animals became our common diet, man started to search for more exotic food such as consuming dogs, horses, bears, wild boars, tigers and even the animals’ internal organs. Men are the reason for the extinction of these valuable species. Using horses and donkeys as transportations were not fast and convenient enough, so man made cars and airplanes that need a lot of fuel combustions. The natural wind was not windy enough so man made air conditionings that require CFCs. It is clear enough that men are the destroyer of Mother Nature and also the contributor of all the negative impact of suffering.

However as we became modernized during industrial revolution, the selfishness and greediness in us have given more and more devastated more serious impacts to our mother nature. Each day tons of toxic chemicals are being thrown into the oceans and air from our industrial factories. These factories do not concern the impact of their waste especially methane, nitrogen, carbon dioxide, sulfur and ammonia that will certainly jeopardize the environment. We or the owners of these factories did not take any concern about it, all that was and is concern will be the profitability that can be provided through the “process of jeopardizing our mother nature”.

Furthermore the greediness in us continues to grow and finally caused not just one time but twice of World War to happen. World War especially World War Two has caused a greater negative impact not only to human being as well as the mother nature especially soils could not be productive and the people whom lived in Nagasaki and Hiroshima have to suffer tumor disease from the explosion of the atomic bomb that launched by the United State of America.

Under the influence of atomic bomb has drawn to the development of nuclear science, this nuclear science has introduced radioactive contamination to our environment of which can remain lethally radioactive for hundreds of thousands of years. For example the Lake Karachay which is named by the World Watch Institute as the "most polluted spot" on earth. This is because nuclear weapons continued to be tested in the Cold War and this Lake Karachay is served as a disposal site for the Soviet Union throughout the Cold War especially in 1950s and 1960s.

Human and the owners of those factories all over the world should not just only concerning about the monetary profits from their businesses, but to realize it is our responsibilities to keep and to fix back the balance of the nature environment. This is because even we will never know the effects of global warming, if global warming is getting more and more worst in time. However our mother nature has shown us couple signs of its “angriness” towards our greediness and selfness behaviors as we have been experiencing several extraordinary natural disasters in this recently years, such as hurricanes, floods, polar ice caps, tsunamis and typhoons.

I think we don’t want the global warming to trigger the cooling trend as the melting polar ice caps might disrupting the flow of carrying the heat from the sun that arrives at the equator to the north by the ocean, and once again pushes the Earth into an ice age just like what was being described in the movies of “The Days After Tomorrow”. So we should know consider to take up whatever “price” in order to slow down or stop global warming as well as to fix the imbalance of our Earth; otherwise our grandchildren or our great grandchildren will definitely be the one whom have to pay all the “prices” of what we are now jeopardizing the environment.

最难忘的地方

2007-03-26T03:49:00.000+08:00

出生在马来西亚一个叫作槟城的地方，
成长也在这个小地方，对许多人而言，
名正言顺的这叫槟城的地方该是最难忘的。
虽然我是在这里长大，但对这里我的确并不熟悉。
也有可能回在这小地方迷失，
或许你并不相信，但熟悉我的朋友都知道我这荒缪的弱点。

我一生最难忘的地方，一个叫我闭起眼睛也会看见的地方；就是处于美国中部的一个小地方，在KANSAS 里的一个大学州域LAWRENCE。
每天我都在同一条路上来回不知多少遍，
以至这地形已烙在我记忆中了。
在这里时的我才是个真正活着的人，
一个会有感觉，会有触觉的人。
因为这里是我的梦同时也是我的人生，
也在这里我确实的认识了我自己。
不再迷惘不再糊涂，而是清晰的知道自己要什么。

我很喜欢这个叫堪萨的地方，因为这里的物价不昂贵，
这里的空气也很清，地方也很干净。
虽然人情是淡了些，但也不至于无情。
可是这一生我再也不敢再回到这个地方，
所谓同样的一条路，同样的环境，
却失去了你的影子，会让我活不过去。
因为我早已习惯在这里有你的影子相伴左右。

如果有机会有时，我真的很希望能够再次在这冰天雪地再次与你同行。很想很想能够再次边拿着热咖啡，边牵着你的手一步步的走去上课。想想那是在零下十一摄氏下步行，真的会冷到牙齿也在那儿震；但内心却是感觉到温暖的，更也是每一天所的期待。

信 - 翁倩玉

2007-03-18T01:01:00.001+08:00

曲︰林敏怡
詞︰鄭國江
編︰林敏怡

雲與清風可以常擁有
關注共愛不可強求
不強求不強求永遠等候
如必需苦楚　我承受

＊誰會珍惜當你還擁有
將要逝去總想挽留
想挽留想挽留看似荒謬
求今天所得　永遠守

＃命運是對手永不低頭
從來沒抱怨半句　不去問理由
仍踏著前路走青春走到白頭
成功只有靠一雙手

重唱　＊,＃,＃

命運是對手永不低頭
從來沒抱怨半句　不去問理由
仍踏著前路走青春走到白頭
成功只有靠堅守信心奮鬥


一首熟耳的歌曲﹐在80年代有誰不會哼這首歌 ﹖
但這首熟耳的歌曲﹐如今又有誰人任記起。
明星﹐ 歌星是一代換一代﹐歌曲方式也一代代改變風格。
60年代時的白光﹐周旋﹔今天的妳/你如果是聽這樣的歌曲﹐
其他人一定會覺得妳怪怪的。

但說真的﹐我聽過了60年代白光的歌﹐周旋的歌﹐
也聽過了70年代的鄭少秋﹐溫拿的L。O。V。E﹐
 徐小鳳的風的季節 & 夢飛行﹐
一直到了80年代更是乎是在譚詠麟﹐張國榮﹐梅艷芳﹐陳百強的天下﹐
當時最熱門的歌曲分別都是留他們所唱﹐
而能讓人的嚷嚷上口的的歌曲
就有愛在深秋﹐愛情陷阱﹐風繼續吹﹐有誰共鳴﹐當年情﹐
心債﹐似水流年﹐眼淚為你流﹐摘星和等。

90年代的四大天王﹐BEYOND﹐草蜢, 葉倩文, 林憶蓮,
王菲, 邝美云, 陈慧娴, 鄭秀文以及到了今天的音樂。
我最喜歡的歌曲風格依然是在于80年代的曲風﹐
那些由林敏怡﹐顧家輝﹐黎小田所作曲的歌曲﹐
林敏聰﹐林振強和鄭國江﹐黃霑所填上的歌詞。

有時真的覺得新不如舊﹐
是覺得新一代的歌星總是缺乏了﹐“星”的味道﹐台風吧。
也覺得新一代的歌詞太長﹐
雖是在講故事但卻缺乏了80年代時那些歌曲的帶動力。
一些會為國為民族的歌﹐
聽歌時心也深同感受就像在聽梅艷芳的血染的風采﹔
一首用來記念六四事件的歌曲。
羅文的獅子山下激勵人在遇到逆境時﹐
應該互相勉勵努力去走過。
這首獅子山下其實也剛好象征了香港﹐因為當時的香港的確處於底風。

This Is Not Goodbye

2007-03-11T15:39:00.000+08:00

最近很喜歡聽Melissa Etheridge 的歌﹐她是個滿有別味的Rock Star.
歌曲不會太亂而歌詞是滿有意思的﹐在自己病的時候。
遠方的朋友介紹了這首個給我﹐要我知道"This Is Not Goodbye"。

This Is Not Goodbye Lyrics
Artist(Band):Melissa Etheridge

Bravely you let go of my hand
I can't speak yet you understand
Where I go now I go alone
This path I walk these days of stone

And the angels are calling

[Chorus:]
I must go away
Wait for me here
Silently stay
And don't ask me why
Only believe
This is not good bye

All of my strength all my desire
Still cannot melt this breath of fire
I go to meet some kind of test
Bury the truth that scars my chest
And the angels are calling and calling

[Chorus]

I gathered all my courage
I shaved off all my fear
With this banner on my shoulder
I hold your essence near

And the angels are calling and calling and calling

這兩年來我真的很情緒化﹐時常都會情緒低落。
再加上這場大病﹐那時我真的很想放棄我的生命。
因為我真的活得很累。。。很累。。。
但透過這首個給了我支持﹐讓我知道生命是No Take Two 的。
既然上帝給我第二次機會﹐我就該好好的活下來。
雖然有些事我已經做不了任何改變﹐也只有去面對。
那麼我就該好好的去保握我現有的﹐
我的家人﹐我的親如姐妹的朋友們﹐還有我所關係的兩個寶貝。
人生是沒有完美的﹐但有缺陷的生命與人生也可以是有趣的。
我不知道將來會是怎樣﹐但我都會好好的去過。
會有多少年我不知道﹐下一回又會是怎樣﹖
我真的不想去猜測那麼多﹐BUT I WILL RUN FOR MY LIFE.

I Need to Wake Up

2007-03-09T16:37:00.000+08:00

Composer, lyrics, sing by Melissa Etheridge

Have I been sleeping?
I’ve been so still
Afraid of crumbling
Have I been careless?
Dismissing all the distant rumblings
Take me where I am supposed to be
To comprehend the things that I can’t see

Cause I need to move
I need to wake up
I need to change
I need to shake up
I need to speak out
Something’s got to break up
I’ve been asleep
And I need to wake up
Now

And as a child
I danced like it was 1999
My dreams were wild
The promise of this new world
Would be mine
Now I am throwing off the carelessness of youth
To listen to an inconvenient truth

That I need to move
I need to wake up
I need to change

I need to shake up
I need to speak out
Something’s got to break up
I’ve been asleep
And I need to wake up
Now

I am not an island
I am not alone
I am my intentions
Trapped here in this flesh and bone

And I need to move
I need to wake up
I need to change
I need to shake up
I need to speak out
Something’s got to break up
I’ve been asleep
And I need to wake up
Now

I want to change
I need to shake up
I need to speak out
Oh, Something’s got to break up
I’ve been asleep
And I need to wake up
Now

This song was written for the 2006 documentary film An Inconvenient Truth, by Melissa Etheridge. Melissa Etheridge is one of the American rock musician, meanwhile she also the famous gay right activist. Her coming out of the closet in the year 1993 hadn't stop her from anything despite she has won twice of the Grammy Award for the Best Female Vocal Performance in 1992 and 1994. And she just won the Oscar Award in 2007 for this song " I Need To Wake Up".

Unfortunely that Melissa was diagnosed with breast cancer in the year of 2004, and fight for her life through the chemotherapy. She survived and return to the Grammy Award stage in 2005 with bald, however she was the highlight of that night. Melissa Etheridge has done great music and provide great songs beside this song " I Need To Wake Up", her other songs are such as " "Breathe", "I Run For Life", "Come To My Window", "This Is Not Goodbye" and others.

THE L WORD

2007-03-01T13:18:00.002+08:00

The L Word is not a famous movies or even noticed in my hometown,
however it is kinda hit over in the US as well as the western colonies. Most people in the States were waiting upon the latest seasons to be release in the early of February.

The L Word was first released by Showtime in the year of 2004, this year has already been the fourth seasons. There are many new characters in this new seasons, meanwhile there also a few charcters that have left this movies such as Karina Lombard who played the character of Marina Ferrer, Erin Daniel who played the character of Dana Fairbanks, as well as Sarah Shahi who played the character of Carmen de la Pica Morales.

It was sad to all the audiences when they notified that Ilene Chaiken made the character ( Dana) to be died as well as the unhappy ending of Carmen with Shane McCutcheon which played by Katherine Moennig. Shane is really stupid to leave Carmen at the altar, as Carmen is really a good choice of her patient with Shane and the care-concern of hers. Shane really such an emotional creeper as she can't deal well with her emotion and to be monogamous with Carmen.

Luckily Ilene has included nice actress such as Marlee Matlin to play the character of Jodie Lener who is the new lover of Bette Porter( Jennifer Beals). This is the new most sexy couple in this new 4th seasons, however it sounded kinda sad when we know that Jodie will be moving away in the 11 episode of this 4th seasons.

We really don't understand why Ilene wants to make Bette's life so miserable and sad all the times, just because she failed Tina once during their 7 years relationship as she had an affair with Candace the carpenter? That's so unfair and cruel to Bette, I guess Bette had suffered enough and she deserve a new good life.

But Ilene Chaiken really fantastic, as she still manage to attract so many people to watch this movies series after she disappointed the audiences when she ended all the happy relationship such as she ended Bette & Tina's relationship in the first seasons, Dana & Alice's relationship as well as Shane & Carmen's relationship in the third seasons.

無極的感恩

2007-02-27T13:16:00.001+08:00

時間實在過得很快﹐悄悄的就這麼過了三個月了。但這三個月對我﹐我的家人來說是一段漫長的日子。這三個月中﹐我們一家人是乎都是催淚到天明。每一天都是過著驚心的日子﹐擔心我們的心肝寶貝。從十二月二號的凌晨四點開始﹐我的心一直不曾平靜過。每一天我的心像似背著千斤重的負擔﹐ 心底默默的祈求我的上帝﹐我的天父憐憫這小孩。求他讓恩恩早日康復﹐早日脫離他的苦難。

看到恩恩的痛苦﹐我是乎掉入了無窮深淵。我心的痛處﹐心的自責﹐ 為什么要讓一個兩歲不到的小孩去經歷這樣的痛楚﹖ 無時不向神祈求﹐我們是何等的疼惜他﹐難到你就不疼他嗎? 不。。。我深知道我們所受的痛楚﹐你比我們更痛。因為打從這孩子一來到這世上﹐我們已經將他奉獻給你。他是屬于你的﹐這事的發生是在你的應許下的。因為我們看見你早就為我們安排好了一切﹐ 因為你知道我們會缺乏金錢﹐所以你就安排我哥哥無意下幫恩恩買了雙保險。如果沒有這保險金﹐我們真的不知道該如何去付這診金。

而這小孩又怎麼會有那麼多人的疼愛呢? 無論是醫院的護士﹐醫生還是technician﹐甚至是全北馬基督工會的會友。多少人因為這孩子的病而每日無私無時無刻的在為他禱告﹐ 因他的經歷感動了多少人的靈魂﹐改變了多少人。聖誕節時﹐我哥哥在台上輕訴這整個事情的經過時﹐台下的會友一個個不僅的泣淚。未見過這孩子的人會在他們夢裡感應到他會好過來﹐見到這孩子健康起來。這同一個時期裡會有那麼多人同心的去做一件事情﹐ 是的﹐這孩子就有如他的名字一樣“祈恩” 他的確是祈禱來的恩典﹐是神給我的恩典。更感謝上帝阿~今日又因你的安排讓我們獲得中醫師的針灸。我們深信這孩子已在康復的路途中了﹐神阿~沒有你這一切又是如何能去步行呢?

你是我心底的烙印

2007-02-25T16:26:00.000+08:00

梅花烙之片尾曲
作詞：瓊瑤　
作曲：陳志遠　
編曲：陳志遠　
演唱：鍾鎮濤/章蓉舫

你是我心底深刻的烙印
你是我眼中唯一的身影
你是我夢裡重複的故事
你是我耳邊輾轉的叮嚀

你是我夢魂深處
永遠不停不停的思念
哦　你是我今生今世
永遠不悔不悔的癡情


以為日子久了就會減少對妳的思念﹐
但原來日子越久我就越思念妳。
過去幾個月我都是用忙碌的生活來麻木自己﹐
雖然肉體十分疲憊﹐但內心深處依然因為思念而痛悟。
跟香港朋友談起﹐她們都摧我去找另個伴。
但我還能嗎? 

不知道。。。
因為我心的確有一個深刻的烙印,一個妳用生命去烙上的。
或許我一個人去支撐實在太累了﹐
很想放棄。。。。。如果能真的很想就這樣就走。。。。
當閉起眼什麼都不用再想時﹐這才是我真正的解脫。

過去的三個月﹐我的確進入過昏迷不醒的狀況。
那時候我的確很想放棄了﹐是家人的枷鎖與牽掛一次又一次的喚醒我。
昏迷中聽到婆婆的聲音﹐她的呼喚使我無從放棄我的生命。
是我姑姑的哭泣聲使從放棄的邊緣再度回來﹐
對恩恩的病情一直憂鬱﹐使我放不下。
如果狠心點﹐今天或許就不會坐在這兒寫這一些。

漸忘

2007-02-24T02:58:00.000+08:00

一直都知道自己的記性不好﹐
很多事情都會隨著時間而逐漸忘記。
但今晚跟一班朋友出去談起很多“以前”的事﹐
我仿彿好像在聽故事﹐因為我是乎沒有什麼印象。
有些名字聽起來很熟悉﹐但臉孔是乎都記不起來了。
有一些是乎連名字也記不起了﹐覺得很陌生。
大概是我以前在學校時﹐不太跟人接觸罷~
但我是乎真的忘記了很多事情﹐
還好我依然記得自己是那一間學校畢業的。。。
不然就真的可以去老人院了。
可是不想記起的事仿彿就一幕幕的反播在自己眼前﹐
或許那是真的刻骨銘心罷﹐儘管經過了多少滄海桑田﹔
始終還是歷歷如新﹐連心也幾幾在痛。
是嘻皮笑臉的對望﹐卻是痛感肺腑的深藏。
如果能忘記。。。大概對我會好一些。。。。

如果你知我苦衷

2007-02-21T01:33:00.000+08:00

作曲:張國榮
作詞:林夕
編曲:梁基爵

你說你 從來未愛戀過
但很珍惜 跟我在消磨
我笑我 原來是我的錯
裂開的心 還未算清楚
如此天真 竟得我一個
付出的心 你收不到麼
如果你知我苦衷 何以沒一點感動
誰想到這樣凝望你 竟看不到認同
明知我心裡苦衷 仍放任我做好夢
難得你這個朋友 極陶醉 但痛

你笑我 為何沒答一句
像不開心 心裡在想誰
我說你 為何沒法猜對
未得到的 竟不算一對
從不相戀 怎麼可再追

BECAUSE I LOVE YOU

2007-02-21T01:13:00.000+08:00

If I got down on my knees and I pleaded with you,
if I crossed a million oceans just to be with you,
Would you ever let me down?

If I climbed the highest mountain just to hold you tight,
if I said that I would love you every single night,
Would you ever let me down?

Well, I'm sorry if it sounds kinda sad, it's just that
I'm worried, so worried that you'll let me down.
Because I love you, love you, love you, so don't let me down.

If I swam the longest river just to call your name,
if I said the way I feel for you would never change,
Would you ever fool around?

Well, I'm sorry if it sounds kinds bad, it's just that
I'm worried, I'm so worried that you'll let me down.
Because I love you, love you.

Well I'm sorry if it sounds kinds bad, it's just that
I'm worried, Yes, I'm so worried that you'll let me down.
Because I love you, love you, Oooh, I love you, love you, love you.

Just a song to remember in Valentine's Day....a song that you have used to sing for me.
It didn't mean anything to me in the past but it does right now.
Sometimes I just hope I can do anything just to be with you.

一个错误

2007-02-12T21:54:00.000+08:00

煙瑣重樓之片尾曲 
作詞﹕瓊瑤
作曲﹕吳大衛
演唱﹕鐘鎮濤

明知道這是一個錯誤
奈何我已經深深陷入
你眼底流轉的輕愁
正是我心中最痛的痛楚

你唇邊盤旋的無奈
正是我心底激盪的悲苦
你偶然綻放的微笑
卻永遠閃耀在我心深處

* 明知道這是一個錯誤
卻是我最美麗的錯誤
你是我唯一的選擇
盡管煙鎖重樓有情難訴
明知道這是一個錯誤
卻是我永不後悔的錯誤
既使我們重活一遍
我仍然選擇這個錯誤*


聽這首歌的確讓我有無限的感觸﹐
很多時候情的開始的確是讓人無法控制得到。
明明知道我不應該去愛妳﹐但就是壓抑不到不去愛妳。
因為從第一眼見到妳開始﹐就是我們錯誤的開始。

儘管妳我如何讓這錯誤去開始﹐ 但妳我確法愛得輕鬆。
我們的感情像是被重重樓域所封鎖﹐
鎖住我們的是宗教禮儀﹐是道德教養。
即使到了今天我依然不後悔擁有這場錯誤﹐
因為它的確是最美麗的錯誤。

如果一切能夠從來﹐我依然會選擇這個錯誤﹐
只是我從中會更學習去珍惜妳﹐呵護妳。
可惜這都無法再來。。。。

感慨

2007-02-04T17:03:00.000+08:00

一个民族的起伏，一个国家的兴旺；都是得来不易的。
所谓“创业难守业更难”，曾经闻名的四大文明古国；
现今还依然能如昔日凤凰的数一数，也只剩下中国了。

中国到底有多久的历史？是从何时开始算起是属于文明？
大多数的人尤其是西方国家的历史家，
都认为中国的文明是从胛骨文在商朝时代开始的;
但中国的历史家就认为在胛骨文之前就有陶文了。

从夏朝開始了所谓的君王世襲，
到了周朝时就建立完備的封建制度而到至東周逐漸解構；
又到了春秋战国时代，　其中有史称“春秋五霸”出现在春秋时期；
那就是齐桓公、晋文公、宋襄公、秦穆公、楚庄王相继称在期霸，
又有战国七雄，那就是秦、楚、韩、赵、魏、齐、燕出现在战国时期。

到后来秦朝首度一統七國政治和許多民間分歧的文字和丈量制度，並建立帝國專制，
漢朝起則以文官主治國家直至清朝；
清末以降，以民為主的各種思潮（包括馬克思主義和民主制度）由外國傳入並開始在東亞地區流傳，先促成中華民國的建立，並於其後四、五十年再出現中華人民共和國。

中华民族经历一代又一代的豪迈光辉的时光，
中华民族在这漫长几万年的历史中，　也经历了虽败没落；
那就是在元朝时代时被蒙古人统治，　和被满清人统治在清朝。
但到了今天中华民族依然被归为强国，一个可以跟美国并肩相摒的。
中华民族能成为世界上持續歷史最久的文明，也是世界四大文明古国之一；
这一切的骄人幕页，是用了千千万万中华民族的泪，　血肉与生命去篇写的。

可是这一页页的骄人历史；
却是确实不知牺牲上了千千万万中华民族同胞的生命去换来的．
但是人们所记得的却只是那了了的几个大英雄而已。
至于那些参兵的牺牲呢？甚至是那些在六四事件中牺牲的学生？
他们的所付出的血与生命？　又有谁记起？
记起的也唯有他们的家属而已。

酒干倘卖无

2007-02-01T16:11:00.000+08:00

酒干倘卖唔酒干倘卖无
酒干倘卖无酒干倘卖无
多么熟悉的声音陪我多少年风和雨
从来不需要想起永远也不会忘记
没有天那有地没有地那有家
没有家那有你没有你那有我
假如你不曾养育我给我温暖的生活
假如你不曾保护我我的命运将会是什么
是你抚养我长大陪我说第一句话
是你给我一个家让我与你共同拥有它
虽然你不能开口说一句话
却更能明白人世间的黑白与真假
虽然你不会表达你的真情
却付出了热忱的生命
远处传来你多么熟悉的声音
让我想起你多么慈祥的心灵
什么时候你再回到我身旁
让我再和你一起唱
酒干倘卖无酒干倘卖无
酒干倘卖无酒干倘卖无

一首已经过了二十年的歌，
记得第一次听到这首歌时，
我还只是个黄毛丫头；
如今已经是个有工作的人了。
这首歌是出直一部戏叫“搭错车”
演父亲角色的演员也离世了，
每一回从看这部戏，我都会掉眼泪。
因为树欲静而风不息；子欲养而亲不在。
这真是叫人心痛的事，可能我是一个看亲情重的人吧。
我一直都认为如果有一天我能成功，
但那一天只剩下我一人；我情愿不要。

曾经失去一位至亲，让我痛不欲生。
如果那天要我失去我的父母，我肯定活不成。
二十多年来呼吸在同一个屋檐下，
二十多年来的养育之恩；
如果能我真的祈愿不会有离别的一天。
我什么都可以放弃，只要能看到他们安好。

或许我是个不太想改变的人，
更是一个喜旧厌新的；
东西陪我久了就越放不下，
光是部车就已经放不下了。

回来

2007-01-16T15:44:00.000+08:00

差不多两个月了，经过了一次又一次死亡的挣扎；

这小坏蛋终于都听到了好的消息。
我的宝贝终于出了ICU，在病房里休养。
我的宝贝也从而渐渐地迈向好的进展。
我感谢神，因为他让恩恩活过来也让恩恩渐渐地健康起来。

我希望我能跟他相聚的时间长些，要再次从他身边离开；
我真的不舍得，我已经放弃了工作。
现在好好的面对我的健康问题，既然小坏蛋能活下；
为了他我也不该去放弃自己。
我要再健康起来，也要去完成我未完成的事。
或许去延续我生命的力量，大概还在；
恩的留下让我还有喘气的余地，
感谢神把他留在我身边。
我深知如果他走的话，我会连呼吸的能力也失去。
因为我再也承受不起失去至爱，
我也已经没有能力再去经历这痛不欲生的事。
我现在只在期待我这宝贝的平安健康回来，
曾起誓不再掉泪，却因为还怕却因恐惧失去；
而泪水不知觉中掉了，这两个月对我而言简直是在度日于年。

難受的一天

2007-01-16T15:14:00.000+08:00

December 26, 2006

不知不覺在DELL的日子也將近半年了﹐
半年的日子就這麼就過了﹐
近來除了工作上的忙碌﹔就無他了。
一直到了我最疼愛的寶貝--恩恩。
記得02/12/2006 的早上﹐
是我九年來最痛心的一個早上。
還在昏昏迷睡中被我哥的電話吵醒﹐說恩恩很危險。
我跟姐姐趕到醫院時﹐看著一般護士和助護正在搶救恩恩。
經過了搶救恩恩是留下了﹐ 但醫生說他依然在危險期裡。
醫生說恩恩隨時都會死去的﹐聽到這裡我的心痛得像被撕裂了。
我疼愛的寶貝一瞬間變成這樣﹐
我真的無法接受﹐這一天好長好長。
我的心痛得讓我無法呼吸﹐ 我知道如果我寶貝的恩恩如果離去﹔
我就會連呼吸去延續生命的能力也會失去。
從不知這小東西原來在自己的生命了是扮演著這麼重要的角色。
可能也是我失去的東西太多了罷﹐我再也承受不起再度有所失去。
又或許我疼惜這小東西多過我自己罷。
如果能的話﹐我情願受疼痛的﹐ 受折磨的人是我而不是這小東西。
也因為這小東西的緣故讓我又再度舊病復發﹐
四肢痲痺無力﹐頭昏腦脹的。
到了今天這小東西依然還在ICU病房裡﹐
但我知道他一定會好起來。

LONELINESS

2007-01-16T15:13:00.000+08:00

May 11, 2006

寂寞的夜晚﹐ 看似十分的寧靜﹐
但有多少人在此時掉淚到天明﹔
無數的星光﹐看似十分的燦爛﹐
但有多少次它曾是裂痕的象征﹔
平靜的海面﹐看似十分的安穩﹐
但有多少人從此被割裂得最深﹔
無浪的感情﹐看似十分的炫耀﹐
但多少次它不曾是痛苦的化身。

想念

2007-01-16T15:12:00.000+08:00

April 18, 2006

我最喜歡的就是黃昏時分﹐
靜悄悄的觀看著太陽﹔
慢慢的掉入大地的懷抱裡。
看著它火輪似的從在高掛的半空中﹐
在慢慢地垂下﹔而失去太陽光芒的大地﹐
也漸漸的由光芒進深紫﹐形成晚霞的美觀。
而那蔚藍的天空也漸漸地變成漆黑一片。
日落夕陽是比日出太陽耀眼﹐
更最適合懶惰的人去觀看﹔
因為不用特地早起跑到海灘去看日出。
但感情呢?
快要結束的感情卻不像日落般的美麗﹐
日落了卻讓人回味無窮它的艷麗。
可是多少段感情的末端都是醜惡難堪的﹐
早幾天聽遠方的朋友講述她與情人的迷題。
說什麼愛他愛不起﹐沒有他現任情人的完美,
又說什麼該懂得幾時抽身才不會導致本身一無所值。
我們相愛時都把彼此看得最珍貴﹐
在彼此眼裡是沒有暇恥的﹔
難到這一切都不是真的嗎﹖
只是給彼此的奉承語嗎?
為什么一旦分開了﹐給彼此的關懷就變了質呢?

如果能

2007-01-16T15:11:00.000+08:00

April 17, 2006

很多時候心中怎麼想﹐
真的由不到自己去控制。
有些人所感情久了自然會深﹐
但難到短的感情就不深刻嗎﹖
不懂自己為何要執著于一些失意的事。
很多時候都在想如果能。。。那該多好。
如果去年這個時候能不曾遇上﹐
那麼對感情的事或許就不會那麼灰暗。
五年前的她如果能不曾遇到我﹐
今天的她是否還是一樣的結局﹖
如果能沒有911的事件﹐
今天的我又會在哪裡﹖
今天的我又會是怎樣﹖
其實這是自己內心的後悔﹐
而讓自己多麼希望會有“如果能”。
可是事實呢﹖﹖
事實就是沒有“如果能”這回東西或是﹐
世間上的事多時都是叫我百般無奈。
不想發生的事偏偏就會發生﹐
想要的﹐夢想要的確永久都得不到。
有時真的覺得做人很累。。。很累。。。
每一天﹐每一次都要強逼著自己去接受自己所不願的。
每一回﹐每一事都逼著自己去承擔那受不了的痛與失望。
人的一生就只剩下忙碌與欺咋嗎﹖
我最想的是如果能在二十六年前不曾出世﹐
如果這一切能是夢﹐夢醒了一切都不一樣﹔
那該多好啊~

昨日與今日

2007-01-16T15:09:00.000+08:00

April 16, 2006

好一段時間已經沒有再這裡留言了﹐
是心平靜了呢﹖還是看淡了人情世估。
出來正式工作後更覺得這世界人情太薄了。
昨天跟我的好朋友和她的男朋友一起去吃午飯﹐
我帶他們去INGOLF SOSSNA吃德國餐。
難得一天沒工﹐就出去鬆一鬆。
吃完後就去Starbuck 買杯Caramel Macchiato,
香濃濃的咖啡﹐入口帶有甜也帶點苦澀。
咖啡濃味﹐仿彿就像人的感情生活一樣。
咖啡中的苦澀就有如感情裡離別的苦﹐
而甜就有如蜜運中的甘甜。
一口一口的嘗著﹐心中有百般的思意。
難到每段感情都會是一樣的嗎﹖
是否每段感情就有如咖啡一般苦澀帶甜嗎?
今日嘗著咖啡﹐思著昔日的為情而受盡痛苦。
喝完了咖啡後﹐我就回家了。
想一想今天回來得早於是便想看看人有在嗎?
想找人談談﹐可惜人都沒上線。
就無聊聊的找些舊戲來看。。。。

新工作

2007-01-16T15:08:00.000+08:00

March 12, 2006

我想我的下半生都會昏託託于工作吧 ~
所以早份工作的確要謹慎 ﹐ 要找份自己喜歡的。
我的這一生有太多時候 ﹐ 太多東西都不是我的操控中了。
只希望我的新工作會是自己要的 ﹐
有了工作做寄託 ﹐ 有了工作來麻木自己 ﹔
至少這樣我的心 ﹐ 我愧疚的心 ﹐ 我傷痛的心都可以麻木的過。
每天就忙忙碌碌的過 ﹐ 為工作上的事物而暫忘了悲痛。
用忙碌的生活來延續摧殘的生命 ﹐
顆疲憊的心去暫忘心底的傷痛。

別人嘴巴 ﹔ 自己道路

2006-03-10T18:46:00.000+08:00

從朋友那裡得知這一則故事 ﹐想與您分享分享。

從前有一個故事是這樣說的：有一群青蛙在比賽誰能爬上最高的鐵塔，比賽開始了……

一大群的青蛙看著那高大的鐵塔異論紛紛：「這太難了！我們絕對爬不到塔頂的?」、「塔太高了！我們不可能成功?！」聽到這，有些青蛙便放棄了。

看著那些仍然繼續爬的青蛙，大家又繼續說：「這太難了！沒有誰能爬上塔頂的?」就這樣你一言我一語，越來越多的青蛙退出了比賽。

但有一隻卻越爬越高，最後當其他的青蛙都無法再前進的時候，牠卻成為唯一到達頂點的選手。

其他的青蛙都想知道，牠是怎麼做到的？於是便跑上前去詢問，才發現原來牠是個聾子！

朋友，你知道這個故事告訴你什麼嗎？

是的，嘴巴是別人的，但人生卻是自己的！

雖然我們不必做個真正的聾子，但卻要永遠充滿希望、樂觀和積極，不要只聽那些消極、悲觀的話，因為他們只會潑別人的冷水，澆熄你的毅力。要將充滿力量的話，時時記在心裡，因為這將影響你往後的一生。

Road Runner

2006-02-05T00:37:00.000+08:00

人是動物中最自傲的﹐
它給了自己一個傲氣的稱呼那就是叫自己為萬物之靈。
其他動物也有它的稱呼例如﹕蜘蛛是最毒因為“黑寡婦”的個性﹐
蛇是最陰險﹐猴子是最靈巧等等。
一向來狐狸在人們的心中都是被灌有最狡猾的﹐
但在人們的心中鴕鳥又是怎樣的呢﹖

人們心底鴕鳥是最笨蛋的﹐因為每當遇到危險時它除了跑﹐
就是在地上挖掘一個洞把自己頭埋在泥土裡﹔
以為看不見就會安全了。
是啊~其實人多少時候也不曾類似鴕鳥一般的自欺欺人呢?
多少次人不何曾也學鴕鳥般的逃避現實呢?

可是在Road Runner Show裡的編輯卻為朦胴一世的鴕鳥反擊啊~
在戲裡﹐一向都貴為極狡猾又聰明的狐狸;
卻落個極笨蛋又白痴的下場。

在戲裡﹐狡猾的狐狸一整天到晚都是被笨蛋的鴕鳥整蠱。
狡猾的狐狸為了想要吃鴕鳥為自己佈置一餐好的食品﹐
竟然想盡了辦法去設下了一套套的陷阱去捕捉愚蠢的鴕鳥﹔
它希望就憑自己所設下的這些陷阱就能吃上鴕鳥﹐
每一次在設下陷阱時它都是沾沾自喜的以為就大功告成了。

哪裡知道正在它沾沾自喜的當兒﹐鴕鳥以將其陷阱套回給狐狸。
鴕鳥真聰明﹐簡直可以不用費氣力就把狐狸整到一踏糊塗。
只用了一招借東風就運用了原本敵方設套的陷阱對付回敵方。

黃昏的承諾

2006-01-13T14:25:00.000+08:00

我最喜歡的就是黃昏時分﹐
靜悄悄的觀看著太陽﹔
慢慢的掉入大地的懷抱裡。
看著它火輪似的從在高掛的半空中﹐
在慢慢地垂下﹔而失去太陽光芒的大地﹐
也漸漸的由光芒進深紫﹐形成晚霞的美觀。
而那蔚藍的天空也漸漸地變成漆黑一片。

日落夕陽是比日出太陽耀眼﹐
更最適合懶惰的人去觀看﹔
因為不用特地早起跑到海灘去看日出。
但感情呢?

快要結束的感情卻不像日落般的美麗﹐
日落了卻讓人回味無窮它的艷麗。
可是多少段感情的末端都是醜惡難堪的﹐
在還相愛時都把所看得最珍貴的事﹐
彼此眼裡是沒有暇恥的﹔
到了分開時就成了分手的理由。

難到相愛時的一切都不是真的嗎﹖
只是給彼此的奉承語嗎?
為什么一旦分開了﹐給彼此的關懷就變了質呢?
而曾經許下的諾言又算什麼﹖

其實人是多麼多麼的虛偽﹐
人與人之間就無法坦誠相對﹖
人與人之間就定要有隔膜嗎﹖
愛到底是什麼呢﹖
或許沒有愛對人又會是怎樣呢﹖

于醉

2006-01-13T14:24:00.000+08:00

昨晚的心真的好累。。。。也好倦。。。。
回想了過去的事﹐ 心情的確有所起伏
突然好想醉一醉﹐好想一醉不醒。

一連醉足不喚醒﹐叫足疲心嘆人生﹔
孤倦鳥兒凋謝花﹐不復故人倦人情。

而昨夜裡的天氣更是最佳不過﹐
外邊響雷傾雨棚天下﹐
酒瓶在手隨而下腸肝﹔
嘻嘻。。。。。。。
嘆乎人情莫于此。。。
多年相識待于此。。。
風花雪月過于此。。。
醉酒街頭坊于此。。。

CAR

2006-01-13T14:22:00.000+08:00

從小在舅舅的影響下逐漸的愛上了車﹐
小時候每一回當舅舅從老遠的新加坡回來時﹔
自己就會因他而養成一種習慣﹐
就是要看看他駕了什麼車回來。
印像中裡的舅舅駕過了好幾種跑車﹐
是乎每一年他都必定買新跑車。
相比之下爸爸就比較念舊幾十年來都只是駕他的MiniCooper.

Toyota 在1980時推出了一系列的限量名車﹔
叫作Toyota Soarer Gt Limited.
那時舅舅就看中了Toyota Soarer ﹔ 就訂購了一部﹐
就在1982年時駕了他剛落地的跑車回來過年﹐
小小年紀的我就愛上了此車﹐他一回到我就吵要到車上去坐。
坐了許久都不願下來﹐舅舅見了就說﹕
�既然妳這麼喜歡﹐將來我換車時就把它給妳好了。�

是阿~再過兩年舅舅竟然守諾言把車留給了我﹐
這也是我生平上的第一部車﹐當時自己沒有牌也不會駕。
我每天都會去摸摸它跟它談談話的﹐家裡的人都說我神經病。
但我就是不管﹐也不去理會他們說什麼。
可惡的是﹐當我熬了十幾年頭只觀看不可駕﹐
終于拿到了執照可以駕駛﹐
爸爸既然要我駕他的minicooper而要我把心肝寶貝借給哥哥。
真的氣死了我~有一次我既然不聽老爸﹐偷偷的駕了寶貝出去。
證明給老爸看我的技術是很好的﹐
爸爸才安心把車子給我駕回。

Ford Mustang
可是才駕三年就被逼跟最愛分離了﹐
因為我到美國去深造﹐到了美國就給自己買了另部跑車代步。
如果是一輛Nissan Skyline, 那該多好啊~
因 Skyline 真好美好型阿~
跑起來真的好有感覺的。
雖然如此但由于自己也有輛2000cc的跑車﹐
自己竟然也學人想跑了去報名參加賽車。
可惜因某些原因我回國了﹐
沒有去比到。。。。真的好可惜阿~

自己很喜歡車跑起來的感覺﹐車子越快時﹐它是特別高興的。
但我還嫌自己的駕術不夠快﹐因為一切還在控制中。
曾經聽過Mettri Adretio 說過﹕
" If everything is under control, then means you ain't going fast enough".
要有好的駕術是應當理解﹐
"Not just only to drive a car but to feel a car".
當覺得自己跟車沒有分別時﹐駕術就已到了最好。
因為當遇到危險時就會理所應當的避開。

但我反而常覺得寶貝是一直都在保護自己的﹐
記得有一次油門漏油﹐如果太快或有火頭那麼車一定會爆炸。
但我沒事一直駕到回來爸爸才將危險性告訴我﹐
因為當時自己被人氣昏了頭﹐一心只要借著寶貝去散氣。
可是它真的很有靈性的﹐每次都保護我。
所以有一次當我車park在外頭被人撞了時﹐
我雙眼盯住她是乎是要把她人給宰了。
如果是傷到我﹐我想我還不會那麼氣﹐但傷到它。。。
我回到家時﹐一直摸著它的傷口﹐心在滴血。
我一整個月無法開心﹐一直到它出廠。
就算我也想往購買其他車尤其是FORD MUSTANG.
但它依然是我的摯愛。

童话光良

2006-01-13T14:21:00.000+08:00

忘了有多久再没听到你
对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了什么
你哭着对我说童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会象童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
你哭着对我说童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会象童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
我要变成童话里你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会象童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
我会变成童话里你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会象童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
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如果你知我苦衷

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如果能

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于醉

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