The Fifth Month

It has been almost 5 months since 27th June 2010.
Don't know why my birthday often turn out to be my saddest day of all.
I still remembered, on 23rd June 2010,
I was still in Hong Kong preparing to come back to Penang for a project.
I got very moody on that day, so I decided to call my mum.
Turn out my mum told me that my grandma was in very danger condition;
of which my grandma might not be able to pull through this time.
I was so worry and so sad of it, I knee down and pray;
"Lord Jesus, for I have wrong, please forgive my sins and being sinners,
please give me the chance to see my grandma, please not to bring her home."

I keep pray and pray then I got peace. Thank GOD for listening to my prayer and my grandma did stay on till I came back to Penang. Yet she was in a very bad condition,
everyone in the family is preparing for her leaving back to Heaven. But I am not ready, and I am so afraid that she might pass away during my sleep.

Then my mum told me that I could pray to Lord Jesus and He shall let me know when grandma is about to go. On the 27th June 2010 early morning, I did a very selfish matter, in a transition of waking up and dreaming; I saw Jesus held my grandma to say goodbye, I was so sad that I knee down in the transition and plead Lord not to bring her home, but to give me one more year to spend with her.