是愛還是恨
很快﹐ 人的日子真快。 。 。
就這麼一眨眼就快半年 了 ﹐
眼見07年就這麼一天天的過 。
這兩年來我都是封鎖著我的心 ﹐
是愛的枷鎖還是恨的枷鎖﹔
我真的分不清﹐ 也講不明。
今天就用我最討厭的顏色來寫一些東西吧 ﹗
兩年前的四月﹐ 是我最倒霉的一個月﹔
這一個月也是我最痛心的 ﹐
跟一個交往一陣子的人散後才原來她一直都在騙我 ﹐
又失去了一輩子最愛的人 。
我從不去恨分手的人﹐ 但這一個是例外的 。
到現在我真的很不想聽有關於這個人的東西﹔
就連包括了她的名她的姓。
還好我的朋友當中﹐沒有這樣字言的人。
我不是真的或存心要去恨這個人﹐
但原來要100%去 寬恕像這樣的騙子﹐
真的很難 。 。 。 因為只要聽到"司徒" 或 "昕",
我真個人就會變得失控而講出不理智的話。
真的太倒霉才會去遇上這樣的人﹐
從此我也不再去信任任何人。
同一年也失去了我這一輩子最愛的妳---楓﹐
失去了妳讓我完全掉入了深淵﹐
也做了最放縱的事 ﹐ 因為當我真的很想迷失自己。
但到今天我依然不知到底我是因為愛還是恨。 。 。 。 。
我真希望不會是恨﹐ 因為恨的感覺實在不好受。
但很多時候我真的無法控制我自己。 。 。
不去恨那個人跟不去想念楓。 。 。
就這麼一眨眼就快半年 了 ﹐
眼見07年就這麼一天天的過 。
這兩年來我都是封鎖著我的心 ﹐
是愛的枷鎖還是恨的枷鎖﹔
我真的分不清﹐ 也講不明。
今天就用我最討厭的顏色來寫一些東西吧 ﹗
兩年前的四月﹐ 是我最倒霉的一個月﹔
這一個月也是我最痛心的 ﹐
跟一個交往一陣子的人散後才原來她一直都在騙我 ﹐
又失去了一輩子最愛的人 。
我從不去恨分手的人﹐ 但這一個是例外的 。
到現在我真的很不想聽有關於這個人的東西﹔
就連包括了她的名她的姓。
還好我的朋友當中﹐沒有這樣字言的人。
我不是真的或存心要去恨這個人﹐
但原來要100%去 寬恕像這樣的騙子﹐
真的很難 。 。 。 因為只要聽到"司徒" 或 "昕",
我真個人就會變得失控而講出不理智的話。
真的太倒霉才會去遇上這樣的人﹐
從此我也不再去信任任何人。
同一年也失去了我這一輩子最愛的妳---楓﹐
失去了妳讓我完全掉入了深淵﹐
也做了最放縱的事 ﹐ 因為當我真的很想迷失自己。
但到今天我依然不知到底我是因為愛還是恨。 。 。 。 。
我真希望不會是恨﹐ 因為恨的感覺實在不好受。
但很多時候我真的無法控制我自己。 。 。
不去恨那個人跟不去想念楓。 。 。
posted by 枫静 at 2:36 PM
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An apple tree and a reader
An apple tree meets many ppl in the park every day. Kids, youngers, adults, etc. However, no one stay with the apple tree. The apple tree used to meet the elderlies at the morning, watching them doing exercise, sitting and talking. Till the lunch hour, the elderlies left and the workers come. The apple tree watch them eating, talking in mobile, working and fighting hard for life. Till the afternoon, the workers left and the children come. The apple tree watches them playing around, screaming and laughing. Till the evening, all the children left and the lovers come. The apple tree watch them giving lovely promises, hugging each other, and kissing.
However, the apple tree never joins them.
Five months later, someone came to the tree. She sat beside it and read. The lady loves reading so much. Sometimes, she even talks to the tree when she was inspired from a book. Sometimes she liked using the fallen leaves to make bookmarks. When she is bored, she came and sing to the tree, hug the tree, and feel the tree. The tree protected her from the sun light, rains and winds. They had so much lovely private time.
Two years later. She left. She went to another park. The apple tree was so down and had no more apples after that. For a period of time, the tree didn't watch at anyone or anything. It did’t care what the time is and who it met.
The bird which lived in the tree, noticing it's going fade. It talk to the tree, "She is only a part of your life, there are so many things that you should treasure. Children's laughing, sunshine, music and so on. In our lives, there are so many ppl passing by. She just stayed a bit longer than the others. She is just a page of your memory book."
Days kept going, still, the apple tree doesn't have any apples, but it has been better, greener, not going fade anymore. It watches the ppl and things around and appreciate them. It enjoy them thoe it cant join them, just like the past. The only one difference between the past and present is, there is a hope in its mind.
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